Leon's breath caught in his throat when Alex's chest touched his. He didn't remember his heart pounding so hard any other time he got into bed with someone. He touched his fingertips to Alex's hip and lightly trailed them along his skin.
Leon had always been skilled in the art of suppressing the things he didn't want to think about, and Alex had managed to get his thoughts off things quicker than a bottle could. There'd probably be nightmares, but it wasn't like Leon could control those. A big part of him just wanted to turn off his brain all together and let his body take over, but he was also glad for the chance to calm down a little.
"No," he said. "There haven't been a whole lot of guys I've wanted to kiss. Though I did kiss one since." Goddammit, why did he say that? "I didn't mean to. It just kind of happened. I mean we were both pretty surprised. He offered me free drinks if I didn't tell anyone." Leon could see that he was just making the hole deeper, but he couldn't drop the shovel. "The mistletoe made me do it." He added helplessly. Jesus Christ, Orcot, you sound insane. Just stop talking. "You?"