Literally Pirateninja (shadowcat) wrote in valarlogs, @ 2012-09-13 16:12:00 |
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Entry tags: | !complete, kitty pryde (shadowcat) |
Who: Kitty
What: A new set of dreams begins, and her powers getting stuck ‘on’
When: Wednesday
Where: Her apartment
Status: complete
Rating: PG-13 for freak outs and potentially fading from existence
By sheer chance, Kitty passed through another world. She couldn't see it, but she felt it's passage, almost felt the shudder of billions as they quaked first in fear, than disbelieving relief. And then she was alone again, with her thoughts. Her anger became weariness, and she yearned for sleep that did not come. She didn't starve, or thirst, she just existed.
Was this hell? After everything she'd been through, all that she had sacrificed and lost, all the good she'd done and the people she saved. After all of that was she destined to be a ghost in the void, forever wandering? There was no one to answer that question, and after a time she stopped asking it.
Kitty's mind wouldn't stop. She refused to let it. That would be giving in. So she thought. Thought of the things she would tell people if she ever got a chance again. She'd mend things with Rachel, and with Wisdom. She'd tell Logan and Kurt how much she truly loved them. She'd find Xi'an and apologize for not taking the chance.
She wove stories for herself. Grand fantasies and adventures, a hundred things that she would write down if she could. Her mind revisited places she'd been, and places she'd always wanted to see.
Sometimes there were lulls. When she forgot who she was, or when she was too depressed to care. It was during one of these when she felt herself shudder. Or rather, the bullet but it was impossible to distinguish this any more. She felt herself slow, and arc in a wide, hours long turn. What was happening?
Her metal body shook as she accelerated. She was going back. Back to where? Earth? Home? What was this? Kitty didn't want to get her hopes up, but she couldn't help it. She'd been lonely and despondent for so long, stretching herself thinner and thinner to preserve her sanity that any chance for hope she was willing to grasp. She knew this would crush her, if it wasn't what she hoped. She didn't care any more, hope was all she had.
It started as a buzzing sensation, and it quickly became painful, as though she were being ripped apart. She screamed, but in her state she wasn't sure any sounds came out. If there had been one, she couldn't hear it. The bullet disintegrated over San Francisco, and Kitty Pryde had returned to earth, courtesy of Magneto. She saw Piotr, and ran to hug him, but phased right through.
She couldn't speak, she couldn't touch anything. It took all her weary strength to remain whole, and nothing she did let her shift back.
Her ordeal wasn't over. She was home, but she was stuck in her phased state.
Not again!
Kitty bolted awake, with a weird sense of elation and terror. Elation that she hadn't died but terror at being stuck in that state again. She tried to cry out, but there was no sound. She realized she was half sunk into the bed, and panicked, floating up and off.
No..NO NO! There was no Reed Richards, no Dr. Doom to fix her. There wasn't even anyone who might know how to keep her from drifting apart into a fine mist. Her only chance was Moira and Tony, but she had no way of contacting them. She screamed Xi'an's name.
Wake up...! Please, god wake up!