Who: Kol Mikaelson Where: His house When: April 29th What: Breaking down over Tatia Rating: PG-13 Status: Log//Complete
He couldn’t take staying with Niklaus and Finn any longer. He was sure his brother’s meant well, but he couldn’t stand them watching him closely anymore, to make sure she didn’t break and fall apart. He wanted to break and fall apart. He wanted to feel pain, anguish, to rid himself of all the bitter feelings that Tatia had left him with when she upped and left him.
Left him. He still couldn’t believe it.
He had thought that they were so…happy. Their impromptu marriage in Vegas had gone off without a hitch. She was Mrs. Kol Mikaleson and she had seemed truly happy to be his wife. But then he had to be stupid and point out that truly being with him forever meant…well…forever. That he’d have to turn her. She had wanted to wait a few years and then she would be turned. He had agreed that he could wait a few years. What was a few years in the grand scheme of forever?
But then she had changed her mind. Had said this was a mistake. That she had loved him, would always love him, but that she simply couldn’t be married to a vampire. How could they bring a child in the world? He had had his sperm frozen, so it was possible, but how could they have a child and expect that child to someday turn too? What if that child didn’t want to turn? She said she couldn’t watch her child die while she remained young forever. She had to leave him.
She hadn’t wanted anything out of the divorce. No money, nothing. Just….a divorce. That only added further insult to injury. He couldn’t even provide for her and make sure she was taken care of. She rejected his help and it fucking hurt! In fact if he didn’t have such a wonderful family, wonderful friends….he would have flipped his humanity switch in the hours after it happened.
He was no fool he knew the calculating, ruthless and coldblooded killer that he became in the dream world. All because his magic had been taken away from him. Being a killer seemed easy for him., just as taking blood was easy enough now for Kol…
And really, what did he need his stupid fucking humanity for anyway? His sister and beloved niece had left town, so had his youngest brother Henrik. Elijah was still off God know where…all he had left were Klaus and Finn. Klaus was happy with his little blonde girlfriend and he didn’t want to drag Finn down with his problems. Finn was doing good now. He didn’t want to ruin things for his brother…. His parents didn’t give a fuck. Well, his mother pretended too, his father listed off everything he had probably done wrong to ‘disgust Tatia’ and ‘scare that poor girl away from the embarrassment that he was’.
So why shouldn’t he turn it off? Maybe his first victim could be his callous fucking father. Get back at him for everything he had ever done to him and Nik.
That was it then. He was going to turn it off.
He closed his eyes…he focused. There was the switch…it would be so easy…all he had to do was
Turn…
It…
….but he couldn’t. He opened his eyes with a shaky sigh and a sob. He couldn’t turn it off. He couldn’t do that to his brothers. He would drown in the pain and maybe one day, it would stop hurting.