magical_geek (magical_geek) wrote in valarlogs, @ 2014-04-01 19:56:00 |
|
|||
Entry tags: | !complete, billy kaplan (wiccan), justin taylor |
Who: Billy and Justin
When: 24th March
Where: Justin’s place
What: Zelda's wedding talk and revelations
Rating/Warning: Low/None
Status: Complete
“I mean it’s all very over the top but it looks wonderful” Billy was saying as he and Justin took their dinner plates into the kitchen to be washed up, “Lots of coordinating with those in Scotland who are organising things that end, it’s coming along well. Even the accents aren’t proving to be as much of a difficulty as I thought they would” he grinned. He had been telling Justin about Zelda’s wedding plans over dinner, he was almost as excited as she was.
“I’ve only met Zelda a few times, but I can already tell that that place is very her.” Justin followed Billy into the kitchen and put his plate in the sink before going to the fridge to get another can of soda, “Talk to any guys with hot sounding accents?” He teased, smirking as he popped the top on the soda can, “Some accents are really hot.”
“Oh it is, it’s going to be beautiful. We’re going to have a great time” Billy grinned before laughing, “I’m not sure the Scottish accent is always hot, it can be hard to understand if it’s really thick though I’m getting better at understanding it”
“When is it gonna be? We’re gonna have to start planning now, probably.” Justin leaned against the counter and took a sip of his soda, “Like how we’re gonna afford it and stuff. Do you have a passport?” Justin hadn’t been out of the country before so he would need to get a passport soon, “Scottish accents in the movies and things always sound pretty hot.”
“Zelda is still toying with the exact date” Billy said, “But she’s already informed me she’s paying for our flights and stay. She’ll want me out there a few days earlier to sort things out so we should be able to enjoy a little time to ourselves before everything begins” he added with a smile. “I got a passport when I started working with Zelda, just in case” he nodded before chuckling, “Maybe there will be some but the ones I’ve spoken to so far have been lacking in the hotness aspect”
“Seriously? I guess that makes sense since you’re her assistant and everything.” Justin moved to the kitchen table where he’d left a sketchpad and pencil earlier and flipped to a page where there were two random, semi finished sketches of Billy. “I’ll have to go apply for a passport soon since they can take forever.” Picking up the pencil, he started on a new sketch in an empty corner of the page, “What is it about some accents that make them so sexy?”
“I think it’s bribery for all the headaches she’s going to give me in the lead up to it which will then be passed to you when I whine at you about it all” Billy grinned, leaning on the counter to watch Justin. He’d been embarrassed at first when Justin had drawn him but he’d gotten used to it more now. His boyfriend had a real talent and Billy felt privileged to watch him work. “I’ll get you the forms tomorrow” Billy said, “Maybe the exotic feel of them? Though I like the California twang” he added in reference to Justin.
Justin laughed and continued sketching, “She doesn’t want you quitting halfway through the planning.” Justin’s sketchbook was filled with various sketches, lots of Billy, random people and things and even some of Brian. He’d shown Billy one or two of the sketches, but unless his boyfriend went looking through the sketchbook, he wouldn’t see all of them, “Thanks. That’ll be a big help.”
“No chance of that not with all the work I’m going to be putting into it” Billy replied. He’d always wanted to look through the sketchbook but he wouldn’t unless Justin expressly told him he could. He was happy to be shown the odd sketch here or there though and enjoyed times like these where he could watch him work, even if he didn’t see the finished article. “No worries” he smiled before turning to put the kettle on to make them coffee.
“She’s lucky then. I’ve seen some assistants who get so overwhelmed with things like this, that they quit before the big event,” Justin smirked as he watched Billy start the coffee for a moment before he went back to his sketch. As he continued to draw, a few minutes later his fingers began to cramp up and when his hand started to shake and he dropped the pencil then placed his hand on the table, hoping Billy hadn’t noticed.
“Well I like a challenge” Billy said turning from the coffee just in time to witness Justin’s hand cramp, frowning he moved over to him hurriedly. “Justin, what’s wrong? Is your hand okay?” Billy stroked his own over it as he looked at him worriedly.
“Yeah, it’s fine.” Justin resisted the urge to pull his hand away as Billy’s fingers stroked over his hand, which was currently balled up into a fist. He hadn’t told Billy about his hand, because he hadn’t been sure exactly what had happened, but now knew the extent of the injury and remembered what had caused it, but he still didn’t want Billy to worry.
“Justin” Billy said worried but stern, “Don’t lie to me. Please. What’s wrong?” He didn’t like the idea of Justin keeping things from him. They were boyfriends and Billy wanted to support Justin if he could.
Justin sighed and stretched his fingers out, blue eyes trained on his hand for a moment before looking back up at Billy, “It’s a side effect of the dreams. From the bashing.” He worried his bottom lip for a moment before continuing, “I remember that now too. The whole thing. It’s nerve damage as a result of the brain damage.” He touched his temple where he’d been hit in the dream, “The doctor, in the dream, said that if I’d been hit like a fraction over, I would have been brain dead or something like that.” He watched Billy as he spoke, “But, my hand starts to cramp up after fifteen minutes or so of using it, which basically means I’m fucked.”
“Oh god Justin” Billy said, sympathy for his love and anger at the dreams filling him, “I’m so sorry” Keeping his hand close to Justin’s he used his other arm to pull his boyfriend close, “But I refuse to believe it means you’re fucked. We’ll find a way to help that means you can still draw” he promised, determined, “Have you seen a doctor here yet?” he asked.
Justin shook his head, “Not yet. I’ve talked to Dr. Pickering, but haven’t actually gone to see anyone yet.” It wasn’t that he didn’t want to, but that he didn’t see what they could tell him that he didn’t already know from the dreams, “I should have told you sooner, but I didn’t want you to worry about me.”
“Of course I’d worry but I’d also do what I could to support you. That’s what boyfriends do” he said, placing a gentle kiss on Justin’s temple. “Do you think...I mean...could it...could it have been my fault? Using the magic I mean” he suggested, wondering if that might have been part of the reason Justin hadn’t told him as well. Either consciously or not. After all Billy had just reacted to the blood, he didn’t know what he was doing really.
“I know. It’s just really fucking frustrating.” Justin leaned into Billy where he stood beside him then glanced up at him as the question was asked, “Of course not. This happened to me in the dreams the exact same way, so you had nothing to do with it. If anything, you helped so that I didn’t lose as much blood as in the dreams.” He reached out and took one of Billy’s hands, squeezing it, “Don’t for a minute think that any of this is your fault.”
Billy nodded, “I wish my magic could help you now” he said softly, if he’d have been better practiced maybe it would have fixed whatever was causing the tremors to begin with but now he’d be too worried of causing more damage to try and fix it. He linked his fingers with Justin’s and kissed the back of his hand, “We won’t give up right? We just need to get you to a doctor, they might know some way to help”
Justin nodded, “Yeah. Probably another CAT Scan or something. I’ll call the doctor soon.” What would also help would be more dreams so he could find out if and how his dream self got over this hurdle. The last thing Justin wanted to do was have to give up his career. He still had so much that he wanted to accomplish as an artist. “I’m glad you’re here. I don’t know what I’d do if I had to go through this alone.” He smiled and squeezed Billy’s hand back.
“You’ll never be alone” he promised partly kneeling so he could wrap his arms around Justin, “I’ll be here with you forever. I love you”
Smiling, Justin wrapped his arms around Billy, one hand coming up to stroke his fingers through the brunette’s hair, “I love you too.” He knew this wasn’t going to be easy and would likely be extremely frustrating most of the time, but with Billy by his side, he was sure that he would be able to get through this.