Jessica Drew [Spider-Woman] (screwedover) wrote in valarlogs, @ 2014-02-11 16:31:00 |
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Entry tags: | !complete, jessica drew (spider-woman), marian hawke |
Who: Jessica Drew and Marian Hawke
What: Meeting, finding out about roommates
When: After this
Where: Coffee shop
Rating: G
Status: Complete
Moving out of the house seemed like the best option. Things were awkward with Carol and her sharing their place. She’d been sleeping on the couch most of the time. It was awkward because she was still so very in love with the woman who just looked at her and had no idea. She didn’t know what to do about it. Trying to get her to go see someone about what happened was even harder than getting her to go the first time. Not to mention to be honest, Jess was kind of angry at Carol. She didn’t want to be, but she was.
So she was moving out for a while. To figure things out. Now some nice woman named Hawke was going to let her crash there in a spare room. That was good. She turned up to the place they were meeting and waited for her.
Hawke's place of business was on the other side of Irvine, but she never minded taking a trip to Baxter's. The coffee was delicious and sparkly and no one could deny they had some of the best baked goods in town. Whatever her new friend from the internet was going through, Marian was certain a few delicious cookies would improve her mood.
At least, she liked to think so. She entered the bakery and looked around the place. She'd pulled up Jess's profile picture on her phone, and it wasn't hard to spot the woman. She waved and then walked over and took a seat, "So you're Jess, and I'm Hawke. We've got introductions out of the way, at least."
Hearing her name, Jess gave Hawke a smile. “Hey. Yeah, I’m Jess. It’s nice to meet you in person.” She went over and took a seat next to her. “Thanks for letting me have a place to stay for a while. I’m happy to give you money for the room. I just didn’t want to go to a hotel. Those things are such a money drain.” Not to mention they didn’t have a kitchen at all, and so she’d be taking out all her food instead of cooking it.
"Oh I don't mind at all, really. I've actually been thinking of offering the room up for a while now. It can get lonely in the flat, when Thackery doesn't drop by. I don't know about you, but I can stand less time alone with my own thoughts," Marian joked a bit.
As for paying the rent, Hawke wondered how best to handle all of that, "A bit of help with the rent isn't out of order, I suppose. Most of the utilities are included, but if our electric bill goes up I'd want a bit of help with that. And of course, we can both pitch in on whatever groceries. Or buy our own, you can have a shelf in the fridge and a cupboard for yourself? I'm not really familiar with how roommates handle these sorts of things."
“I used to have a roommate a long time ago, so I get finding it a bit lonely in your place every once in a while.” Though she hadn’t ever thought that she would need to move out of her and Carol’s place and find a place of her own. The whole thing bummed Jess out.
“That sounds amicable to me. I think that sounds about right. Buy your own stuff and if you want to share, then that’s totally fine. I don’t mind sharing food.” Jess wasn’t that picky. “If there’s something I really want to myself, I’ll put my name on it. I hope this whole thing doesn’t last too long, but I honestly don’t know what’s going to happen.”
"Do you mind my asking what's going on? If it's too personal I won't push, but it couldn't hurt to talk about it. At least not in a place with warm coffee and baked goods. Do you want something? I'll gladly buy." Marian waved one of the waitresses over after asking. If Jess didn't want something, she knew she at least did.
“Well it’s.. it sounds like I’m making it up, but I swear that I’m not. Okay so I’m engaged.. to a wonderful woman named Carol. Carol has super powers too. But.. she got this brain.. aneurysm thing.. I’m not even sure if it was in her dreams and then it turned real or it just happened here in the world world,” Jess began. “But in any case, she pretty much refused to see the doctor for forever and then was told under no circumstances was she to fly because that would pop the thing in her head. She flew anyway. The thing burst and now she doesn’t remember anything. Who she is, who I am.. anything. That’s the short version.”
She hm’d a bit after she explained. “I’ll take a coffee, sure. Thanks. So anyway it’s really awkward and I don’t know how to handle it and I’m trying to be there for her but we only have one room and one bed at home and I’ve been sleeping on the couch and it’s just.. bad.”
That was quite a bit to take in, and Marian tried to process through it as she placed her own order. The waitress ran off, and Marian pressed her palms against the table, "I think I've read about some of this on the internet, come to think of it. You don't always put things all together - I don't usually do that unless I'm being paid to."
That last was a joke, and she wrinkled her nose a bit as she spoke, but her face went serious quickly afterwards, "But that has to be hard to deal with. And not only just the fact where you lost your fiance and someone you shared your life with. ...To have a medical condition like that and refuse treatment, then put yourself at risk... Well, I think I'd be angry, too. And now you can't even yell at her."
Jess nodded her head a bit. “Yeah I don’t really pay much attention to other people’s stuff unless I really need to.” Even though it was all in public, but she still didn’t feel like it was any of her business. She preferred just to talk about the weather or whatever. “I guess maybe I’ve talked about it. Getting other people’s advice.” She hadn’t known who else to talk to.
Joke or not, she could totally understand that. “RIght? I mean.. I feel bad that I’m angry. Because.. yeah I can’t yell at her, because she doesn’t know what she’s done. I mean I told her sort of, but it won’t click. And if I could, I would have just.. shaken her and told her that it wouldn’t work. Not to put it all in jeopardy because she needed to fly. That’s so.. selfish.” She let out a frustrated sigh. “Sorry. Sorry. I’m trying. I really am.”
"Well no, I mean, that's a legitimate feeling you're having there. It's no use pretending that it isn't. I'm certain that I'm going to fail at relationships in both worlds because I tend to do similar. Well... I'm stubborn and hate going to a healer for anything, and if someone told me not to do something I'd probably go and do it right then."
Marian snorted a bit, and shook her head, "So there's no knowing how long it might be before she remembers? If she remembers at all."
Jess took a sip of her drink. “To be fair, I used to be the same way. I hate going to the doctor, I refuse to admit that I’m sick.. but then I got cancer. And this is the third time I’ve been in remission, so I guess my views have changed slightly about my health.” That was before she became a spider and then somehow her cancer totally healed up on it’s own, not that she was going to bring that up. “But it still sucks. And no, I don’t think there’s any kind of.. way to tell. I mean that aneurysm basically destroyed the memory part of her brain but then her.. whatever special power she has heals. So it destroyed it, and then healed over it but.. without the memories. Who knows if she’ll ever get them back.”
The mention of the cancer had Marian momentarily concerned, though she nodded her head and took a sip of her coffee when Jess mentioned the remission, "Having a serious illness like that would definitely change your perspective on things. I like to think it would change mine, too."
As for the rest of it, Marian wasn't really sure what to say that would be at all comforting, "I just know this is difficult. I'll never know how difficult unless it happens to me, and I don't really think you'd wish it on me, either. It doesn't sound... extremely promising, though maybe if whatever part of her loved you is still there, you might have another go at it at least? But I'm not sure if that's something you want or not. What I can say is that you're welcome to stay with me as long as you like. I'm not really planning on going anywhere, aside from perhaps a trip home to London sometime over the summer. I'd trust you to keep the place up while I was gone a week, if you were still living with me."
“Yeah I really have no idea how this is going to go, one way or another.” Jess wasn’t giving up on them. She’d always be there for Carol. After all, Carol was her best friend as well as everything else. “And no, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. I’m trying to be optimistic about things, but I think for now it’s a good idea if I give her some room. I mean it can’t be easy having to live with a stranger. I want her to feel comfortable. So.. yeah. Thanks for letting me stay. Hopefully it won’t be too long. I can do that. I promise nothing will get broken and the house won’t implode.” She smiled slightly.
"Well if it does implode you'll have to use your superhero powers to rebuild it," Marian joked.
What Jess was doing was admirable. Marian had no idea how she would have handled it, in the other woman's shoes. If Thackery forgot who she was, or if, in the dream world, Fenris did. It seemed like she alwyas had more on her plate than she could handle, there. Would she see it through?
"You're doing the right thing, I think. It's not the easy thing at all."
She laughed, “I promise that I will. I think I could do it too.” She had all of that super strength. “I’m not sure how to hammer things together, but I think I can work it out.” Jess had never imploded her own house, so she was sure that she was going to be fine.
“I really wish I knew what the right thing was. Too bad my stupid powers don’t allow me to see the future.”
"And sometimes the right thing now isn't the right thing, later. But I really do think it is. No matter what path you take from here. Sometimes you've just got to follow your gut." Marian nodded, and put her hand across the table.
"Welcome to Chez Hawke. You can move in tonight, if you like, I'll just have to change out the bedding - the cat likes to sleep on the spare bed."
“You’re right. I have to take it as it goes.” No sense in trying to rush things or plan things that might never happen. Jess was okay at following her gut. She hoped.
“Thanks. I’ll be over a bit later once I.. get my stuff together.” And then talk to Carol. This was so odd. They should have been married by now. She reached over and shook Hawke’s hand. “I really appreciate it. I’ll see you tonight.”
"Take your time, I'll be home all night. Though if you show up and I'm not there, it's because I took that moment to go talk to the super about the spare key. Just wait around a bit in that case," Marian said, while rising to her feet. She snuck one of the spare scones she hadn't eaten into her pocket, and picked up her coffee to take it with her.
"I think this ought to be fun, circumstances notwithstanding. I'm glad I decided to answer your post."
“Will do,” Jess said with a nod. “I’m glad too. See ya around.” She gave a small wave, picked up her coffee to take it with her and headed off. Hopefully this would do some good.