“Rikku? It’s me!
Who: Kitty and Rikku What: Checking on her girlfriend When: 1/19 after the AU thing Where: Rikku's place Status: complete Rating: PG-13
`Kitty had a lot to think about. How choices could make things change a great deal. How hard it was to stop snogging Rachel when the other girl started it. Even if that wasn’t technically her Rachel. How much she’d missed Rikku and all her friends (she was going to be ecstatic about Gaz. Awkward, but ecstatic).
After checking on the twins and assuring them things were back to normal, she’d rode her bike right to Rikku’s and knocked on the door. “Rikku? It’s me! E's pylg, E fyc cfybbat fedr yhudran naymedo!”
Blinking, Rikku answered the door. “How do I know you’re my Kittykitty and not BadKitty?” She folded her arms. The Al Bhed was a pretty good indicator, but she wanted to be sure.
"I uhm..." She rubbed the back of her neck. "Because I'm going to be honest and say I snogged the other Kitty's Rachel for a little longer than was strictly necessary to get past the initial shock?"
“I kinda figured,” Rikku sighed, opening the door. “Come on in. BadKitty is scary, is she still here? Or did she go back to where she belongs?”
“I think she’s gone. Some kind of evil twin swap.” She stepped inside, starting to reach for Rikku and then dropping her hands. “I did stop it. Then she was all ‘who the fuck is Rikku’ and I had to run for my life.”
“Good.” Rikku chuckled and wrapped her arms around Kitty. “I mean, I know you love her, but you were as faithful as you could be, you know?” Curling closer, Rikku pouted out her lower lip. “I missed you.”
"It's not like that. She's just my friend!" Kitty didn't want Rikku to ever think she was somehow second in her heart. She hugged Rikku close against her and then couldn't stop herself from kissing that pouty lower lip. "I love you." She kissed it again and hugged Rikku tightly.
“I love you too,” Rikku smiled. She didn’t really care if she was second or forty-second in Kitty’s heart; she was the one that Kitty had chose, so that suited her fine. “How was it, aside from that?”
Something that Kitty had trouble accepting was Rikku’s ability to just let it wash over her. Roles reversed, Kitty would be incredibly insecure. “Freaky. The other me sided with Emma Frost instead of Xavier and did some pretty questionable things before she and Emma joined the X-men. Then someone managed to kill Emma and I don’t think the other me ever really recovered from that.” She had the impression the relationship had gotten physical, and earlier than was probably acceptable.
“So that’s why it was ... ew.” Rikku wrinkled her nose. “She must’ve had Stockholm syndrome or something.” It wasn’t that Rikku just accepted things, it was more that she didn’t think dwelling would do any good. She assumed that if she was insecure, if she was upset, she’d lose Kitty that way instead of whatever inevitable way she’d lose her eventually. Rikku was just determined to live in the then and now.
“Probably. My Emma was a bitch but it took her years to become a better person.” She kissed Rikku’s nose. “But I don’t want to think about that. The kids are okay and you’re okay and that’s what matters.”
“Oh, god, what happened to the twins?” Rikku’s green eyes went wide, and she flailed her hands a little.
“Well they had a Dark Kitty running around and I was so worried she’d...do something to them.” Kitty didn’t know what, but if she wanted to fuck up herself targetting the kids would be the way to do it.
“Did she just take care of them?” Rikku nibbled her lower lip in worry. “Do they need hugs? I feel like I should give them hugs.”
“I gave them hugs. She was kind of neglectful but she didn’t hurt them.” If she had she’d find a way to tear a hole in reality and go after her.
“I knew I should’ve punched her in the face,” Rikku grumbled. “She kept trying to get me to admit that you don’t love me.”
Kitty felt coldness in her stomach. “Now I wish you had. I can’t believe she’d do that. Why would she do that? Ugh.” She could blame Emma’s influence for that.
“To make me not believe in you.” Rikku shrugged. “I told her that’s now how love works, anyway. It’s not conditional like that.”
She nodded her head. “Yeah. Makes me want to analyze why she believes that but in all honesty it doesn’t take much for me to make that leap…” She shivered and rubbed at her arms. “Seeing her life and the way it mirrored my own is humbling.”
“Oh? How so?” Rikku tugged Kitty further into her apartment so they could sit down under a blanket and get cosy.
“That Kitty was me. Me if I’d made a couple bad choices along the way.” She plopped onto the couch. “I pity her. She seems lonely. Even with Rachel. Because I think she isolated herself on purpose as a defense mechanism. I’m...really familiar with that, except I learned how to open up and let people back in. I wonder if she’s going to look at how things are different and how she’ll react.”
“Probably not. She didn’t really want to talk to me. Now I feel bad for calling her BadKitty when she’s really just a SadKitty.” Rikku nuzzled into Kitty’s neck, trying not to cry. Even if the other Kitty wasn’t hers, she wanted the girl to be happy.
“Oh she was kinda bad.” Kitty laughed. “But it’s a nurture over nature thing. I do have a darkside, I just don’t let it out. “ She kissed the side of Rikku’s face. “Hey, it’s okay. I really think she’ll look at her life and find reasons to be happy that don’t involve hurting people. At least that’s what I’d do.”
“Sad usually leads to bad,” Rikku smiled. “OH! WHILE YOU WERE GONE! YUNIE DIDN’T DIE!” Tidus had left, and that had sucked, but her cousin in her dreams was fine! It had made her get up and call her cousin in real life, waking her, making sure she was okay.
“Yes!” Kitty kissed Rikku. “I’m so happy for you, honey! I know you were worried sick about her.”
“I really was, it’s just not ... right for people to keep sacrificing themselves for the greater good. If that happens, it wasn’t that good. I’d rather find another way.” Rikku grinned and kissed Kitty again for good measure, pleased it was her Kitty.
“Yeah.” She kissed Rikku again, closing her eyes and savoring the taste of her girl’s lips. She knew she’d sacrifice too, and felt a little guilty about that too, but that was who she was.
Rikku had her ways of saving the world and Kitty had hers. Hopefully, if the situation ever called for it, they could meet somewhere in the middle. “Wanna go sit with the twins and drink hot chocolate? I miss ‘em.”
“I kind of wanted you to myself for twenty minutes before that, but hot chocolate with the twins sounds amazing,” Kitty admitted.
“We can do twenty minutes,” Rikku purred, chuckling a little. “Bedroom?”
Kitty grinned at Rikku, brown eyes bright. She was always on, so all it took was that one word. “Bedroom.”