Re: Damon + Samandriel
Samandriel didn't particularly see it as toxic. It had a chance at being healthy for both of them, at getting what they needed from each other.
He could practically feel the discomfort rolling off the other man. Sighing softly to himself, he briefly left the room only to return a breath later with Damon's bottle of bourbon. He hadn't been there for Dean's alcoholic days, but some part of him wondered if they weren't so different from this.
"Yes, Damon. I love being sexually frustrated and jerking off far more than anyone who gets laid as much as I do should have to," he responded dryly. Before he offered the liquor to Damon, he took a deep pull from it himself. Then he handed it over.
"Castiel," he said softly, "and Dean only when my brother's there. Just them." Them and Lucifer, but there was no way in which Lucifer would qualify as 'other' in this situation no matter how much he was an eternal temptation for Samandriel. "And you." There was a certain softness to his tone, one that acknowledged his knowledge that being the only one Samandriel wanted that he hadn't been angelically tied to made Damon special and Damon really liked being special.
He looked up at the vampire, at his vampire. "I think we're both sitting here well aware that we're fucked, neither of us willing to be the first person to cross that line because we don't want to hurt her. And yet we're not about to walk out on each other so where does that leave us?" It was half the reason he'd wanted to meet Elena. He didn't want to be Samandriel: angel of imagining ways to destroy your relationship.
The angel stood, reaching to touch Damon's face but stopping just short and letting his hand drop instead. They'd let each other far, far too close. Granted, that hadn't entirely been their choice, but it was still a thing they couldn't undo. He turned and went to go sit on the edge of the bed instead. Castiel's desk chair looked far too confining for this conversation. "Drunk and conflicted and...and here." That was where it left them.