Jessica Drew [Spider-Woman] (screwedover) wrote in valarlogs, @ 2013-10-22 21:18:00 |
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Entry tags: | !complete, carol danvers (captain marvel), jessica drew (spider-woman) |
Who: Jess and Carol
What: Some bad news. But then some good news.
Where: Their place
When: A couple of days ago
Rating: G
Status: Complete
It was both good news and bad news. Not cancer, but still something, some kind of lesion that was pressing on her brain. Carol had dreamed something like this just the night before, so she’d been expecting it. Dreading but expecting it. The whole thing was cruel, but then it always was. She squeezed Jess’s hand and leaned against her. “If it’s not one thing, it’s another.”
Jess was sure that they would get through it all. They had to. That’s what they did. The two of them. She squeezed Carol’s hand in return and then kissed the top of her head. “I know, it’s a giant pain in the ass but at least now you know for sure. And now we can fix it. Somehow..” she just didn’t know how. Yet.
“I don’t know if they could even remove it.” She rubbed at her face, then nuzzled Jess. “I dreamed about this. It’s...pressing on the part of my brain that controls my powers.”
Her fingers ran over Carol’s hair, petting her gently. “Really? So.. what happened in your dreams then?” She wasn’t sure that she wanted to know, but Jess kind of had to know.
“I don’t know. It’s just there and I don’t know why. I’m grounded. I think I can use my strength, but flight or power blasts? Off limits.” Carol made a face.
Jess kissed her head again. “I’m sorry. I don’t want you to be grounded.. and stuck. But I mostly want you to be healthy and okay.” That was what mattered, right?
“I know.” But flying it was who she was. “You know…” Her voice was quiet. “Wanting to have a future with you is the only reason I’m not pushing myself right now. Wanting to...long term. Things.”
“And I appreciate that. Because that’s what I want. I want you and me.. long term.. things. Getting married. All of that. But that doesn’t work if we’re both not here.” Jess didn’t know what she’d do without Carol.
Carol had been saving something, but she didn’t know if she’d lose the chance or not. Maybe it was better to not wait, to dive head in and enjoy life while they could. She reached into her pocket and pulled out a box. “I … ah. I made it myself… The stone, I mean. I had help with the band.”
Jess blinked. Well maybe she thought it wouldn’t be exactly right now.. but.. “It’s beautiful.. are you.. asking me?” she asked in return, carefully.
“Yeah. I’m asking you. If you want me to be asking you. If you don’t want me to be asking you then can we forget I’m asking you?” Carol clamped her mouth shut before she blurted further.
She couldn’t help but laugh a little, and then leaned over and kissed Carol soundly. “Yes. I will marry you. And Carol.. will you marry me?” Maybe Jess didn’t have a ring yet, but she wanted this.
“Yes.” She wrapped her arms around Jess and squeezed her, kissing her deeply. God, what would Tracey say to all this, if she were around?
Jess slid her fingers into Carol’s hair and kissed her soundly. Her family was probably going to freak out a little, but that was okay. She wanted them to. “I love you.”
“I love you too. I think we’re going to need to do the meet the family thing.” It was like she was reading her mind!
“Yeah.. we probably should. Tell them first before we tell everyone. I’ll ask my parents if they want to do dinner sometime..” Jess was a little apprehensive but they could do it. “We’re going to get married.” She couldn’t stop smiling.
“I always told my dad I’d surprise him. Never thought it would be like this.” She smiled a little nervously. “I half expect my mom to say she told me so.”
“Our parents are going to panic. Oh.. what if we had a joint dinner. With all the parents. Do you think they’d be more or less panicked then?” Jess hm’d.
“...more panicked. God and then there’s the lesion in my head.” Carol tilted her head back and thunked it on the back of the couch.
“Okay.. so no group dinner.. I guess you can tell yours and I can tell mine? Unless you want me to be there. Which I would be.” Jess didn’t mind standing up to people’s parents. Mostly.
“I can stand up to the Hulk but facing my parents? That’s something else entirely.” She smiled and nodded her head. “We should be there for each other.”
She couldn’t help but laugh a little. “That’s an accurate assessment. I don’t know what it is about parents that make us all crazy. If we ever have kids, we can’t let them be scared to tell us things.” Jessica didn’t want them to live like that.
“No, but we’ll have to embarrass them horribly,” she pointed out. “Because that’s what parents do. But we have to let them make their own life choices and support that.” Because she never wanted to be like her father.
“Good idea. I’m all for embarrassing them. And we’ll be good parents. Not shitty ones.” Like their own. They had that in common. “And for the record.. you’re the one having the kids.” She was teasing. Mostly.
“We talking for real or are we just joking around?” She could carry a kid. That wouldn’t be that hard. Right? Right. She could do it, if Jess wanted that.
“Yeah I’m talking for real. I mean I’m joking a little. I wouldn’t let you have to carry all of them. Unless I can’t .. because of radiation.. I don’t know actually.” Jess would have to look into that. “I mean, if you really want kids.”
“Maybe. That might be nice. A little Spider-marvel running around, giving us grey hairs.” She smiled, the mental image too adorable to resist.
“A spider-marvel. Oh look, the kid already has a super hero name picked out for them.” It would be a pretty cute kid though. “Only if we get someone extremely not crazy for the sperm.”
“You’re the geneticist, aren’t you?” She raised her eyebrows. “Couldn’t we...combine eggs or something?”
“I am, but combining eggs doesn’t give us sperm, I’m afraid. We still need a donor.” Just one that wasn’t an asshole. Jess had little standards.
“Who’d need sperm, you just need two X’s to make a girl, don’t you? I guess it would kind of be like cloning.” She wondered who’d they could get to donate.
“You need a sperm and an egg to make a baby, Carol. Please don’t make me teach you about the birds and bees. Do you need a sex ed lesson?” Jess asked seriously. Mostly serious.
“I was just hoping with modern science they could turn an egg into a sperm,” she explained. It wasn’t really her field of expertise. “I mean, who would we even want to be the babydaddy?”
Carol was adorable. Jess ruffled her hair. “I.. don’t really know. There has to be a guy we both know who is nice enough. We can advertise?” she shrugged some.
That started Carol laughing, and for a long moment she couldn’t stop. Her mind was filled too much with the most ridiculous ad she could imagine!
Laughter was contagious, because as soon as Carol started, Jess couldn’t stop laughing either.