audrey (bidabble) wrote in valarlogs, @ 2013-08-14 11:55:00 |
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Entry tags: | !complete, audrey, merlin |
I can’t... I can’t control it.
Who: Merlin and Audrey
When: During the Bodyswap
Where: Audrey’s place
What: Smexxins.
Rating/Warning: High/No triggers--just some good, old-fashioned smutting in here.
Status: Complete
It was still somewhat disconcerting to Merlin to be looking at himself knowing that Audrey was in his body. It had been a strange sensation to be cuddling with her in bed watching tv then suddenly to be cuddling with her in bed watching tv but in her body. He thought they had done very well at not freaking out. They were obviously getting too used to strange bloody things happening.
After getting Nina to check them out, and confirm there was nothing physically wrong with either of them they had tried to go about their days as normally as possible. Luckily they hadn’t been the only ones affected which meant explaining it to colleagues and friends was a lot easier.
The only interesting discovery had been Merlin’s magic which had manifested itself throughout the day whenever Audrey had been angry or happy etc. So he had promised to help her try to control it.
Audrey had tried her best not to let things go crazy at work. She’d gone in for as little time as she could, preferring to spend the rest of her time at home where if things floated or exploded or whatever, it wouldn’t do as much damage. And the customers couldn’t see.
She was in the living room now, sitting still on the sofa, eyes closed. She was breathing slowly, trying to focus on her emotions. Discover it, embrace it, release it. It was the closest she ever came to meditation.
“You’re doing great love” Merlin told her softly, hands holding hers (his? it was still confusing). “Remember it’s not something to fight or dominate, it’s just part of you” It was harder than he had thought it would be, trying to explain his magic and how he managed it. He was more controlled than anybody would have guessed, though Audrey now knew.
Strong emotions bubbled up within her at the sound of his voice. (Audrey preferred to keep the gendered pronouns the same as before, it made things straighter in her own head.) Love, lust, fondness, affection... it was almost overwhelming. She took some more deep breaths, slowly, but the magic felt like it was building within her. Eyes opened to look, and she was looking into her own face.
“I can’t... I can’t control it.”
“You can Aud, you are” Merlin assured her, “Don’t expect too much. I’ve had a lifetime in dreams to adapt to it all, you’ve had just over a day” He stroked the back of her hand, he’d been working hard to ignore the physical appearance of them and focus on the feel of Audreys aura, harder to do without his magic but something he was determined to do. He needed to help his fiancee.
She let out a gush of air, a sigh, and closed her eyes again. Discover, Embrace, Release. Discover, Embrace, Release. It was so difficult, feeling the love inside her. The feel of his/her hands against her/his own. It was almost too much. She whimpered. “I don’t know what’s going to happen if it... if I let it go...”
“Let go” Merlin told her not liking to see her struggle so much, “My magic isn’t a destructive force naturally so just let it go. It won’t hurt us, maybe an exploding lightbulb at most. Let it go love, maybe it’ll help” He was confident it just needed a release, Merlin used it in little ways much more than he used to so it was probably just a build up of magical energy.
Audrey nodded. She opened her eyes and felt the magic release--as if a bubble inside of her swelled and burst. She was looking into her own face, her own eyes as it happened, and gave tiny jolt at the feel of the magic within her.
Merlin saw his own eyes glow golden as she let the magic go before he felt it wash over him in her body, feeling a warmth spread through him before it all settled back into normal again. He smiled brightly, “See? No problem” he smiled, “Whatever you were thinking was warm and bright, so just hold onto those feelings to release the magic”
“That was... amazing. You really are magical.” She smiled, the smile coming through on Merlin’s face. Bright and cheerful. It was so weird to look at herself. She could see what he loved about her, but she could also see all of her own flaws. It was so strange. “I just hope that I can keep it warm and bright, so that I don’t do any damage while in your skin.”
Merlin laughed softly, “Now you have the magic, a different kind to your usual natural magic” he told her, “How could it not be warm and bright with you at it’s heart? You are warm and bright my love, it’s just naturally you”
Audrey blushed. It may have looked a little funny on Merlin’s cheeks. “God, you’re just... so wonderful. Even when you’re in my body.” She leaned forward to kiss him. Herself. It was weird. “...you know what we should try?” She asked, pulling back a little and smiling deviously.
It did look a little funny, but also kind of endearing. It was weird but didn’t feel completely wrong which was odd in itself. Raising one eyebrow Merlin asked, “What?” partly excited and partly worried.
“Unless you think it’s too weird...” Audrey said, then leaned forward to kiss Merlin in her body, just under the jaw. She nuzzled into his neck there. “...we should have sex. If we can.” She wasn’t sure how to control his... y’know. It seemed to have a mind of its own. Though, she was fairly confident that she could give him the ride of his life in her body. Not only had she had sex with women before, but it was her body. She knew what it liked.
Merlin felt himself blush, which probably looked way more attractive on her face, "I don't think that's too weird" he told her, kissing her once more, "I mean, knowing what the other feels might even be beneficial when we swap back, right?" He said thinking along the same lines she was.
“Yes.” Audrey said, grinning. She imagined the grin on his face. It made her smile even brighter. “God, I love you. I can’t imagine being stuck inside anyone else’s body right now.” She added, then stood and pulled him up with her. She was strong inside this body. Confident. Tall.
"I love you too" he told her, "There is nobody whose body I would ever rather be in than yours" he grinned before being hauled to his feet. "I feel like I should swoon for you" he teased having fun with her, after all they might as well right?
“You should.” Audrey said. Then she lowered her arms and swept herself up into them. ...that was a little weird. “I’m just as heavy as I imagined I’d be.” Years of working in a bakery made Audrey a thick girl. She had curves.
Merlin laughed, “Nonsense, you’re as light as a feather” he insisted, “You’re just off balance being the one doing the sweeping” Personally Merlin was a big fan of her curves.
Audrey chuckled, shaking her head. “Shush. You’re right here in my arms. I can feel how heavy I am.” But instead of arguing further, she leaned over and kissed him, carrying them both off to the bedroom to lay him down gently on the bed.
Merlin was happy to kiss instead of argue, it was much preferable. It felt strange to be laid out watching his own body above him, but kind of exciting too. He was looking forward to discovering things about Audrey’s body he hadn't yet found out.
There were a lot of things for them to discover still. A lot of things for them to try. They had the rest of their lives to explore every avenue--to attempt new things and repeat the old ones. Audrey’s hands started to wander over the oh-so familiar curves of her own body, reaching up to unbutton the front of her dress. It was fun, and she did it with ease.
It was more fun than he had thought to watch his own hands moving so confidently over her body. He’d gotten over his initial hesitancy when touching her quite quickly but he was watching the placement and movements closely, to remember for when he had his body back.
“Hey,” Audrey said, in Merlin’s husky, sexy voice. “Stop that. Stop trying to memorize everything for later,” she breathed, lowering her lips from his to his jaw to his neck. “Just enjoy yourself.” And then she helped him get the dress off, the bra off, the panties off.
“Sorry” he replied automatically, forcing himself to relax and feel her bodies responses. Becoming naked happened a lot faster than he’d thought it would but he didn’t mind, hands went to his trousers removing them and the shirt so she was naked too. All’s fair after all. He ran a hand down her side and back up, before tracing a finger over the nipples.
So that’s what that felt like. Audrey chuckled. She ran her own fingers over his nipples in return, then gently cupped each breast the way she knew she liked. Now that they were both naked, it was time to slow down again. Hands wandering, exploring every inch of the skin she knew so well. They started up at the top. Neck, shoulders, breasts, stomach, hips, thighs, and one hand slid up inside between his legs to explore. It was like coming home.
The sensations Audrey was causing in his/her body were very pleasant. It was obvious she knew her body very well, much more than he knew his own. Guys seemed to be a bit more basic, they focused on one maybe two areas whereas women seemed to know every inch. At least if Audrey’s exploration was anything to go by. When she touched between his legs it felt pretty bloody amazing, though also pretty strange. To feel her finger entering where nothing had before in his own body. Obviously.
Obviously. Now he had a crevice instead of a protrusion. And Audrey was going to explore it with her fingertips, slip one inside, find her own G-spot. It was much easier from this angle, actually. She dipped her head down to suckle her own breasts, because she knew how good it felt to have a tongue swirling around her nipples.
Okay, yes now this did feel good. He was pretty sure he’d done this for her, though he wasn’t sure if he’d found that spot before. It made him gasp quite loudly, “Bloody hell” he murmured.
“Right?” Audrey said, smugly, moving her hand against him... kinda her... mostly him. She dipped her fingers inside, hitting that spot over and over without letting up.
And that was how Merlin came to experience his first orgasm in Audrey’s body, which had him gasping and whimpering underneath her. “Fuck” he breathed out once he could breathe again.
Audrey was really, really good at pleasing herself. She was good at pleasing other people,. but she was extra good at pleasuring herself. She was able to bring him down just a little, letting his body relax. And she leaned up and in to kiss his neck. “...more?”
It was true, Audrey definitely knew what she was doing. Merlin only hoped he remembered half of this when they were switched back.
“Really?” he breathed out reaching up to rest a hand against the back of her neck as he pulled her down to kiss her.
Audrey was nodding when he pulled her down into a kiss. She’d never done this part before, though she was very much looking forward to it. She had a feeling she could figure out the mechanics. A lot of it was instinct, right? Her body moved over his, and the rock-hard, almost-painful erection pushed up inside her. It was wet and warm and made her groan and shudder. “HolyGodthat’sgood,” she breathed into his mouth, whispered against his lips.
A lot of it was definitely instinct, Merlin would have agreed. But he was rather busy crying out Audreys name as she entered him. It was strange but not unpleasant to be taken, to feel so full as she slid in so deep.
He smiled at her words, "Yeah, you feel pretty damn amazing in there. Like I'm coming home each time love" he told her breathlessly.
“You know how it feels to be me.” Audrey whispered. As much as she wanted this to last forever, she knew that if it took too long for her to get moving, then he might not come again. The longer between climaxes, the more effort to bring about the next. She started to move against him, pulling out almost all the way and pushing back in again with a groan.
"Yeah, I really do" he smiled at her before gasping as she pulled out and pushed in again. Now that felt bloody good and Merlin told her as much well moaned it anyway. His hips rose from the bed as he moved with her, chasing that incredible feeling.
Audrey chuckled. “This is harder than it looks.” She had to focus on the thrusting, and keeping herself from losing it, and her balance... but soon she found a rhythm. One hand grabbed the headboard for leverage, the other came to Merlin’s hip as they made love. It was awkward at first, but a couple of minutes went by, and Audrey was a fast learner. She was moving and thrusting, and gasping. The hand on his hip slipped between them to give him some extra stimulation. She wanted to feel him come while she was still inside him.
“You’re doing pretty damn well” he told her with a grin, closing his eyes for a moment as she found the rhythm. She really was a quick learner, and held it together better than Merlin. The moment her hand touched his clit he cried out and came again around her.
That was all that she needed. Audrey couldn’t stop it--it simply engulfed her. She tried to continue moving against him, as best she could, but her muscles froze up and she exploded inside of him.
They lay together sated and breathless and it was only when Merlin had enough sense and air in his lungs that he let out a “Bloody hell” of satisfaction as he cuddled her close, as best he could anyway being the smaller of the two right now.
Audrey chuckled. She rolled onto her side, still holding him as close as she could. There was a love mess between them, but they could take care of it later. “My thoughts exactly.” She said, and nuzzled her face into his cheek. “I love you.”
“I love you too” he told her, kissing her softly. They could definitely worry about cleaning up later, right now he didn’t think he could move even if he wanted to. And he found he couldn’t bring himself to mind.