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This was the most normal Shane felt in months. He was ignoring the fact that the conversation was around the corner. He was holding on to a few moments of old habits before it disappeared again.
"After you," he said, gesturing for her to lead the way. "For the record I was only being gentlemanly because you know where we're going." The typical Shane smirk on his lips would hopefully let her know he was still teasing.
He walked beside her as they made their way to the coffee place. The smell of the coffee made him think of Common grounds and Eve and Michael and home. Once they ordered their coffees and were sitting across from one another there was nothing left but to talk. All the distractions and the banter couldn't help him now.
Lyssa had been working on him for awhile to talk to Claire. To try and fix things. It wasn't that he didn't want to or that he wasn't willing to do whatever it took, he just believed she could do better than him. It didn't matter how many times Lyssa tried to convince him otherwise. His father had drilled it into his head for so long that he was worthless that he believed it. It was hard to ignore that fact when he'd hurt the only girl he ever loved.
"I'm an idiot Claire. An asshole. I was stupid and I can't take it back." The strain of his emotions showed slightly in his tone and the way he kept dropping his gaze.