I only want what's best for Gav. I don't know if he's told you, but we're taking things really slow. I know about his last relationship and I've never been in one before. All we've really done is hold hands. I respect his boundaries and wouldn't dream of crossing them. I would never push him to do anything he wasn't comfortable with.
And, well, I know it's not exactly the same as what he's told me about while he was growing up, but in my dreams, my father wasn't exactly the best either. From the time I could walk, he trained me to be an assassin and when I was eight, he made me kill a man. I know it's not the same, because it's only the dreams, but those things haunt me now.