>>Iola's death, the reason why she died, still hurts a lot >>And I don't think that will ever change. >>But that's not my only memory of her. >>So I try to think of the happy memories I have of her. >>It's not easy, I won't lie. >>I still have good days and bad ones, the holidays are especially hard for me. >>But the good days are starting to outweigh the bad ones.