Then it sounds like it's the perfect time to do some spring cleaning and get you on your way to a happier, healthier Rogue. It won't be fun, and it will be hard, but if you're ready to do that, then this is the right time to do so.
It's good that you're aware you need the help, and are able to ask for it. In this one, I'll follow Jean's lead, especially as she's already been in your psyche to assist.