Emma
I can't have a life here. The day I woke up with my roomate trying to kill himself, I realised that. It might be different for you. Your powers a very different from mine. But I can't sit here and pretend that this isn't happening to me.
You're wary. I actually get that. I have several questions I've raised with Scott before I just sign right back up with this. But I don't think we can just ignore it, either. It wouldn't bring me any peace of mind. It isn't the right thing to do. I have to live with myself when this is all over.
Maybe you're speaking of something that I haven't dreamed yet. I don't have all the pieces to the puzzle. But I'm not giving up. I don't give up.
And I can't be happy living some normal life I ran away and stole while everyone else stood up and fought. Maybe you can. To me, that's just the coward's route. You never struck me as a coward. You strike me now as a woman who is scared to death of becoming someone she hates and having to live through those horrible experiences over again.
I just had a dream where I was tortured for hours just because it was someone's idea of fun. I've had dreams where people want to kill me because of who I am. My leadership lead to the death of one of my best friends. I struck a deal with the Goddess of Death to ensure a fair fight on the battlefield. The payback she collected from me is something I would never in my life want to go through, again.
Turning my back on all of that is selfish.
You'll do what you want. No one can make you do anything else. Good luck. I don't expect I'll be speaking with you again.