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Dumat: The Dragon of Silence (nearestvessel) wrote in valarcomm,
@ 2013-10-06 14:13:00

Entry tags:

abigail hobbs, castiel, samandriel

Texts to Castiel and Abigail
Castiel
>> With all this build up going on for some reason I was expecting Lucifer to look like Dean's brother
>> And not like my boyfriend
>> This is all very surreal
>> How far are you?

Abigail
>> The angel of Thursday has fallen

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	nearestvessel 2013-10-06 06:14 pm UTC (link)
	>> Dream me is terrified. >> He...it seems strange that of all of heaven, Castiel is the only one he believes in >> I don't know how to feel about this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laniidae 2013-10-06 09:56 pm UTC (link)
	>> Is Castiel okay here? >> I know you look up to him here. >> Maybe that crossed over. >> The dreams can bleed through sometimes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

nearestvessel
2013-10-06 10:07 pm UTC (link)

>> I ah...
>> Abigail.
>> There were only four other angels who really mattered to me in heaven
>> I mean everyone mattered to me but
>> Four who really meant something and would put up with me.
>> Lucifer fell. Gabriel disappeared. Joshua was more...father figure than anything.
>> And Castiel.
>> I /loved/ Lucifer before the Fall
>> And after, I loved Castiel
>> I just want the people I dare to love to stop being cast out or walking away.
>> Fuck.
>> I'm sorry.

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	laniidae 2013-10-06 10:14 pm UTC (link)
	>> Do you think it's your fault? >> Because it's not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nearestvessel 2013-10-06 10:23 pm UTC (link)
	>> I don't think it was my fault >> I'm just tired of it happening >> Tired of loving and losing >> And I worry I might be next >> But Castiel rebelled for Dean and nobody should really be surprised by that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laniidae 2013-10-06 10:26 pm UTC (link)
	>> Castiel and Lucifer aren't going anywhere. >> The four of you are a unit now. >> They're not going to leave you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nearestvessel 2013-10-06 10:30 pm UTC (link)
	>> Let's not kid ourselves here, Abs. If Dean told Castiel to do anything, he would. >> Including walk away from me and anyone else. >> And with the shit I've been pulling, I couldn't blame any of them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laniidae 2013-10-06 10:50 pm UTC (link)
	>> What are you talking about? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nearestvessel 2013-10-06 11:05 pm UTC (link)
	>> I may be an eternally old celestial being >> But I'm also still a seventeen year old boy >> With seventeen year old hormones and decision making skills and >> and a teenage temper sometimes too. >> what if that monster is inside me somewhere, abs? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laniidae 2013-10-06 11:19 pm UTC (link)
	>> There's a difference between being a teenager >> and being what you were. >> That's not you. That's never going to be you. >> I know you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nearestvessel 2013-10-06 11:22 pm UTC (link)
	>> I don't know me >> Not anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laniidae 2013-10-06 11:26 pm UTC (link)
	>> That's a problem. >> I'm not worried about you being evil or bad >> I worry about you not knowing who you are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nearestvessel 2013-10-06 11:27 pm UTC (link)
	>> Well how the hell am I supposed to? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laniidae 2013-10-06 11:31 pm UTC (link)
	>> Reflection, therapy, just existing. >> I don't know either. >> I wish I did. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

nearestvessel
2013-10-06 11:36 pm UTC (link)

>> Therapy isn't an option right now, not when I can't find a therapist
>> Or when even dream me is so lost and afraid he doesn't know what to do either
>> Heaven starts the apocalypse, Abigail.
>> Heaven.
>> They just...they let it happen and dream me is terrified.
>> I don't think he wants people dying any more than I do
>> And it's harder for him than most of the rest of heaven because he can actually imagine what all these endgame scenarios are like.

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	laniidae 2013-10-06 11:44 pm UTC (link)
	>> but there isn't here. >> it just isn't. >> I don't think it will be or could be. >> at least I have my fingers crossed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nearestvessel 2013-10-06 11:54 pm UTC (link)
	>> I don't eat any more. >> I barely sleep. >> I could probably be sliced open and be none the worse for wear >> There isn't Here for you, but in some ways, it is for me >> It's just all happening so fast. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laniidae 2013-10-07 12:00 am UTC (link)
	>> oh my god. >> do you >> do you want to go do something? >> something normal and boring? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nearestvessel 2013-10-07 12:06 am UTC (link)
	>> No. I wanna go to bed and...and wake up and not be an angel anymore >> I just wanna be a normal human being (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laniidae 2013-10-07 12:24 am UTC (link)
	>> If I could swap with you >> I would. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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