"I'm not trying to pay penance for my past transgression on you. You and I both wanted it, whether we're failing to admit it to ourselves or not. Though the idea I am finding hard to believe is that you do not desire to do it again. I've stood here and admitted to the fact that I do, but can you honestly tell me that you do not?" It'd help her sleep, and he'd finally lay a few ghosts of his past to rest. "Dying of exhaustion is your next step to falling asleep, from what I'm seeing."