She swallowed hard and started to tell him what had happened. She started with the arrival of her as-good-as-adopted son from the future, Teja. She moved on to discuss Alexia, the demon who'd charmed her and made her forget him, following with how Teja had murdered him to get out of an unfair deal. She was sure to specify that once her memories returned, she'd felt her heartbreak anew because she'd started to miss Sweeney all over again. Then she told him about Ryuzaki, the younger version of her son, her adoption of Esther, and how she couldn't find them.
"But L - even though I cared, and he helped me be more human - he was my consolation prize. I think I settled. I would never have you back, so I made myself content with him." She sighed and squeezed his hand.