Sable had also never in her life been one to dwell on disappointments. Never until Soren... that was an experience as completely alien to her as this world had been and still sometimes was.
"Well... of course I'm sad that Bod and I couldn't work out. I'm going to miss him. I offered to let him keep living with me but he said he couldn't. I'm going to miss his company, for what it was... To tell the truth, Lulu, I think Soren truly did spoil me. When we first began dating... he would do such elaborate stunts... he gave me these horribly extravagant gifts which I always thought were embarrassingly flashy and tacky and far too rich for me, but he never seemed to care that I was just some bastard roadie, he treated me like a princess for a while. He used to come over to my shop every time he had a few minutes to spare... he even used to... Well, that's more than you need to know as his mother, but trust me, he did things that were just... Well, for that little while before he really figured out him and Cass, he made me feel like I was the only woman in the world to him. It's terrible, because I know no one is ever going to do that for me again. He had money and mage-powers and no reason to do anything but use them both on whatever took his fancy... and for a while, that was me. And really... that's what makes his absence still feel fresh to me. I've been with a lot of people... men and women... mostly men... I've been with guys who just wanted a quick fix in a dressing room, and I've been with guys who fancied themselves romantics and would play the game of pretending to be some kind of knight in shining armor and come bearing flowers or some little pretty thing... but none of them were ever so generous or sincere as Soren was. With everyone else, we both knew it was sort of a game, and we played it well, and I'd return favors for favors, you know... but no one has ever, EVER loved me like Soren did. So of course, damn his blonde little ass, I can't ever just settle for someone like Bod, as much as I really, REALLY want to. I really just want to go back to how I was in my world, where I could snap my finger and have a lover if I wanted, and I could decide to have someone who was rough and wild or cool and sensitive, and I could be a princess or a whore for them, and it never lasted because it was never supposed to, and we were both happy with that. But here... this isn't my world. These aren't the people I grew up with. I could have lovers here for a night or a week if I wanted, but it isn't the same. It isn't easy like it was then, no one plays or shares here, and now I have a taste for something that only exists in fairy tales, and my cousin got to be the one who gets to keep it now, bonded so deeply they're literally dead without each other. Now they're going to have a baby and have Henn and be together and happy and after all that, I have Teja as my best friend, and pretty much no one else. ...and this is getting to be a really pathetic-sounding rant, isn't it? Sorry. I just... I don't have anyone else to talk to like this."