He smiled a little, swallowing before thinking of what he wanted to say. "There was a mission, a very high-profile, very prestigious mission, and I wanted it. My guildmaster let me take it, much to everyone's surprise. Myself, a comrade named Taliesin, and a beautiful elvish girl named Rinna. Rinna was... all I'd ever thought to want. She had acid wit and was as skilled as I. Our mission was to kill a wealthy merchant. We were infiltrating well enough, but then we got word that Rinna had taken a bribe from the merchant and turned against us." His voice was cool and even through the entire story, face impassive. "I held her Taliesin moved to slit her throat. She begged forgiveness, she said she had never betrayed us, that she loved me. That she knew I loved her. I spat in her face and pledged my fealty to the Crows. My guild. I watched her die. I learned, later, that my guildmaster had planted the rumor on purpose. He found me cocky."