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Tweak says, "rp is dead"

Henriette Stillman (not_that_henri) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2009-09-04 00:39:00

Entry tags:

henriette stillman, soren skwigelf

Who: Henn & Soren
Where: Wolfpackhaus
When: Thursday sometime
Warnings: None likely for once.

Henn wasn't worried, not really, she didn't have the capacity for it with her emotions shut down, but she knew it wasn't normal to have one's emotions detached for so long. She'd done everything she knew how to do, and so far it hadn't worked.

At that particular moment she was sitting on her shelfnest, eyes closed, more-or-less meditating, just listening to the house around her, brow creased slightly in something like confusion. She could pick up on the emotional states of everyone in the house, everyone she met, and she remembered what those emotions were like, but she couldn't get herself to feel them now.

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	twiceloved 2009-09-04 07:55 am UTC (link)
	Soren was mostly happy, but on occasion, he did worry about Henn. It was one of those bouts of worry that made him go upstairs to her nexting area, and he sat down on the floor near her. "Hey." (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-04 08:01 am UTC (link)
	She tilted her head, studying him for a long moment before she even opened her eyes, "Hello." Was the quiet response, sitting still and quiet, "Is everything alright?" (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-04 08:03 am UTC (link)
	"As good as it can be." He smiled and nodded at a space next to her. "May I sit by you?" He could tell just by looking at her that she was still feeling numbed off. (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-04 08:04 am UTC (link)
	"Of course." She said with a nod, brow creasing slightly, "There's room." A slight shrug followed, "I was just meditating." (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-04 08:07 am UTC (link)
	He sat down next to her, wrapping his arms around her loosely, and kissed her lightly. He sighed and leaned against her. "I'm sorry." (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-04 03:03 pm UTC (link)
	Her brow creased again at the apology, settling herself comfortably into the loose hug. Even with her emotions blocked off, physical comfort was one of the things she needed, "For what?" (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-04 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	"That everything exploded so much that you had to close off." He stroked her hair gently, sighing. "I'm sorry for a lot of things, to be honest." (Reply to this)

not_that_henri
2009-09-06 10:06 pm UTC (link)

"That's not your fault." She said, shrugging, "No more than it's anyone else's. I should have seen it coming too, maybe tried to help instead of just running off to see mom because it was quieter there."

She shook her head then, tilting her head up into the hairpetting, brow furrowed as she tried to come up with a simile that she knew he'd understand, "Mom's emotional, same as anyone who knows the Shadows, but she's got a better handle on keeping it all in check. The difference between here and the Guildhall is like going from a very small room with two loud full-set speaker systems blasting two different kinds of metal to going to a large auditorium with only one small boombox playing classical music at a low volume."

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	twiceloved 2009-09-07 05:53 am UTC (link)
	He nodded, kissing her forehead. "I know you and Cass are linked, same way he and I are. I just wish I could help you sometimes too. I know I'm not ... the same to you, and I don't ... I don't know. I just feel guilty, I guess." (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-07 06:02 am UTC (link)
	Her brow creased again, shaking her head, "You shouldn't feel guilty for what you are, Soren. You shouldn't feel guilty for something you have no control over, nor for simply being what you are." (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-07 06:03 am UTC (link)
	"Well, I do anyway. So there." He stuck out his tongue, half smiling. (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-07 06:07 am UTC (link)
	Her brow furrowed further, finally shaking her head, "That would be like me feeling guilty for being Cass' Shadow. I just am." (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-07 06:09 am UTC (link)
	He chewed lightly on his hair. "I don't - I don't know, maybe I feel guilty too because I love him so much, and he's yours too. I guess I worry that you'll get upset too about me and him. I don't know." He scrubbed his hands lightly over his face. (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-07 06:13 am UTC (link)
	She shook her head, "Like you said, the two of you are linked. There's nothing I can do to break that and no reason that I would want to. That would be like ..." Her brow furrowed, once again trying to think of something he'd understand, "Like in Dogma, cutting off an Angel's wings. Without each other you're fragile and have a short life span." (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-07 06:21 am UTC (link)
	"Yeah, that makes sense. Still, you have a place in my heart as much as he does, you know." He hugged her more tightly to himself. "So it aches when you aren't as happy as you could be." (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-07 06:33 am UTC (link)
	"It's only temporary." She said, settling comfortably against him, "It won't last forever and once things settle for certain I'll be back to the way I was before." (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-07 06:35 am UTC (link)
	"Good. I miss you." He smiled and ran his fingers along her arms. "Anything I can do to help?" (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-07 06:46 am UTC (link)
	She actually had to think about that one, brow still creased slightly as she settled against him, finally shaking her head, "Nothing that you aren't already doing." (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-07 06:48 am UTC (link)
	He nodded and smiled, humming a little under his breath and rocking her without really realizing he was doing either. "I'm glad I'm doing something." (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-07 06:59 am UTC (link)
	Both of those were good too, even if he didn't realize it. She stayed settled against him, letting her eyes close, "You are. You all are." (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-07 07:02 am UTC (link)
	"We all love you. You were blameless in this, and you sort of got caught in the crossfire." He closed his eyes, smiling and sniffling a little. (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-07 07:12 am UTC (link)
	She shook her head, brow furrowing, "Not blameless, Soren. I knew it wasn't working and I ignored it." (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-07 07:14 am UTC (link)
	He shrugged a little and smoothed out her hair, thinking of what he could do. He kissed her ear lightly. "Want to put on a movie or something?" (Reply to this)

	not_that_henri 2009-09-07 07:20 am UTC (link)
	"Alright." She said with a nod, "And let me braid your hair. You need to relax." Really they all did, but he was the closest one at the moment and was the easiest to deal with. (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-09-07 07:21 am UTC (link)
	"Okay." He smiled a little and burrowed, tucking his hair behind his ears. "I just washed it this morning, so it should smell good." He liked his shampoo, it made his hair smell like cinnamon. (Reply to this)

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