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Tweak says, "It is I, Van Helsing"

Soren Elias Chappu Skwigelf (twiceloved) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2009-08-13 22:36:00

Entry tags:

sable skwigelf, soren skwigelf

Who: Soren and Sable Skwigelf.
What: Arguments.
When: Thursday night.
Where: Chez Wolfpack.
Warnings: I'll just put yes to be safe.

Soren paced around his bedroom, trying to think of what to tell his wife. You don't get along with my husband, I don't know what to do. That was too understated. I can't do this anymore. That was true, but sounded to dire.

The truth was, the way his spouses got along had to end. Soren was literally worrying himself sick, and he couldn't live that way anymore. But nothing was changing. Sure, they had good weeks, but they were few and far between. They felt like false hope more than anything else. He needed something in his life to change. He'd talked with Cass, and now he needed to talk to his wife. Did he still love her? Of course. Was he starting to doubt their compatibility? It worried him, but that was an affirmative as well.

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	ex_sable973 2009-08-14 03:45 am UTC (link)
	It's not very long before the door opens. Sable looks up and blinks, surprised to see him. "Oh. Hey, baby. I didn't know you were in here. Sorry, did I interrupt you? I was going to come hang out here for a while..." (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-08-14 03:47 am UTC (link)
	He shook his head. "It's fine, really. Just - I don't like being aggressive, you know that." He continued pacing, continued his four steps to the left, turn, four steps to the right routine. He was going to wear a hole in the carpet if he kept it up. (Reply to this)

	ex_sable973 2009-08-14 03:50 am UTC (link)
	She closes the door, puts down the book she had carried in with her, and goes to sit on the edge of the bed. "Soren. What's wrong?" (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-08-14 03:51 am UTC (link)
	Soren leveled his eyes at her. His voice was raw and a bit lower than usual, probably because he'd thrown up in anticipation of what he was about to do. "You fought with Cass. Again." (Reply to this)

	ex_sable973 2009-08-14 03:56 am UTC (link)
	She blinks back. "No I didn't. We didn't fight. Who told you that?" (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-08-14 03:57 am UTC (link)
	He didn't stop staring her down. He wanted - needed - her to understand he was upset. "Cass. He was upset." (Reply to this)

	ex_sable973 2009-08-14 03:58 am UTC (link)
	She is completely lost. COMPLETELY lost. It is clear as day that she hasn't got the faintest idea what he's talking about. "But... wait. Wait, what??" (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-08-14 04:00 am UTC (link)
	"Cass. Was upset. Which means he and I fought. Which means that I have, yet again, spent another day crying and upset because you two can't or won't get along. Do you know what it feels like to worry until you throw up? Because you love two people so much and they can't fucking live together?" He kicked a bedside table, sending the lamp scattering before turning away from her. (Reply to this)

	ex_sable973 2009-08-14 04:07 am UTC (link)
	And... she is lost. "But... but we didn't fight. He... Soren, I don't understand! There was no fighting! What did I do??" It's clear from her voice that she is genuinely baffled. "He just... he told me I should go to you. He let me hug him and that's all. Really, Soren... that's all!" (Reply to this)

twiceloved
2009-08-14 04:10 am UTC (link)

"Every time you mention children, he breaks. And someday, I don't know if he'll even want to have kids with me any more. Sable - I can't keep doing this. I can't. I don't know what has to fucking change, but - I can't sit by and watch him shatter, and I sure as hell can't spend my life like this. When you two aren't fighting, I wait for you to. When we aren't fighting, I wonder if I'm doing my job right or if you're going to drop another bomb on me. Yes, I love you. I still want you. But the way we're going, I don't know how long this is going to last. My fingers itch half the time because I want to hurt myself so bad because I'm so. Fucking. Stressed. Out.." He curled into a ball on the bed, breathing hard, choking back bile. He hated saying things like this, hated being the bearer of bad news.

	twiceloved 2009-08-14 05:44 am UTC (link)
	"I'm a damn fool, then. You can fix it afterward. Your problem is that you want to be the superlative. The most useful. The most loved. The most everything. Sometimes you will be. Sometimes you won't be." He sighed and scrubbed his hands over his face, ignoring his broken knuckles. "So. What have we been talking about? What do you think this argument is about?" (Reply to this)

	twiceloved 2009-08-14 06:17 am UTC (link)
	"Why. Do. You. Think. I'm. Upset." His tone was brusque, just one side short of a growl. "Stop distracting yourself." (Reply to this)

	ex_sable973 2009-08-14 06:28 am UTC (link)
	"I--" She slumps back, closes her eyes, takes a deep breath. "I... missed something. I haven't been attentive to your or Cass's needs... or Henn's, I expect. I have not learned well, how to live like you. I've upset Cass, and so I've upset you. Is that right?" There's something desperate about her asking. She is never desperate. (Reply to this)