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Adikia (colormewrong) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2009-07-08 00:34:00

Current mood:	sad
Entry tags:	adikia, até

Who: Kia and Ate
What: Being drunk and emo.
Where: The roof of Ate's apartment.
When: Now.
Warnings: Swearing, possibly Kia falling off the roof, who knows.

It was never easy to get a goddess drunk and when one was dealing with a very, VERY well seasoned drinker like Kia, it took quite a bit more than usual. She was on her fifth bottle of Jack before she even started to feel anything, her twelfth before she began to wobble as she paced back and forth in front of the patiently waiting Ate, and her eighteenth before she finally sat in front of Ate and started bawling.

"I'm so stupid."

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banishedruin
2009-07-08 08:28 am UTC (link)

Até for her part had been waiting for the eventual breakdown, and stuck to wine, nursing half a dozen bottles as she watched her sister down the Jack. While there was the lure of getting drunk with her sister, she had the feeling there was something her sister needed beyond the bottle. And the tears simply proved it.

With a soft sigh, she wrapped an arm around Kia's shoulders, tugging her close. "What happened?"

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	colormewrong 2009-07-08 08:31 am UTC (link)
	"He let that pussy angel of his put a chastity device on him." She laid her head on Ate's shoulder and just let her tears soak into Ate's shirt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banishedruin 2009-07-08 08:34 am UTC (link)
	"Ok, ok..." She nodded absently, one hand rubbing at Kia's back as she took a sip of wine with the other. She should have gone with vodka. "And that doesn't make you happy..." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	colormewrong 2009-07-08 08:36 am UTC (link)
	She lifted her head and glared at Ate. "NO, it doesn't make me HAPPY. Why would it make me happy? I don't want him for his fucking voice." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banishedruin 2009-07-08 08:42 am UTC (link)
	"Mmm." She nodded, keeping her face bland as she tucked her sister's head back onto her shoulder. Fucking christ. You'd think they'd all know better than to come with her with relationship advice. What the hell did she know? "Sounds to me like you wanted him for more than his dick, too." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	colormewrong 2009-07-08 08:51 am UTC (link)
	"FUCK NO, I don't...I mean...I don't...I didn't...I don't know what I wanted." Her voice went from outrage to thoughtfulness to confusion over the course of her sentence. "I'm not in love with him." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banishedruin 2009-07-08 08:55 am UTC (link)
	"You don't have to be in love with him to want something more than the occasional screw." Tilting her head, she kissed Kia's brow. "Have you talked to him about it all? Men are kind of dumb." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	colormewrong 2009-07-08 09:00 am UTC (link)
	"He let that Angel tie his dick up so he couldn't fuck ME. Not other women. Not other men. ME. I'm not talking jack shit to him. He obviously doesn't care what I feel." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banishedruin 2009-07-08 09:15 am UTC (link)
	"Well, they have been together for a while, right? Perhaps he saw you as a threat. Maybe there are better ways to go about it, but love does crazy things to people. Not that it makes him less of an asshole." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

colormewrong
2009-07-08 09:25 am UTC (link)

"A threat to WHAT? I told them both I didn't want a fucking relationship. I didn't want monogamy." She stood up again and paced, woobly-like across the roof. "I didn't want his heart. I just liked him. Him and his talented tongue and awesome sadistic streak. We had fun together. It was FINE the way it was. I didn't want anything to CHANGE. But NOOO. He had to go and let his Angel fuck it all up."

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banishedruin
2009-07-08 09:34 am UTC (link)

"Well, little girl... Sometimes in a relationship it's not about you. I get that you hare it, and maybe your demon does too, but you need to realize that you're not a part of the decision making process there." Até stood and moved over to her in an attempt to keep her from falling off the roof somehow or something equally dumb. " I know it's not what you want to hear, but a part of love is compromise, or giving up what you enjoy of it bothers the other person. And as long as you prefer being the piece on the side instead of trusting someone enough to try a relationship, you're going to keep getting shut out, love. Even if you're not a threat, jealousy can get vicious. You know how that is."

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	colormewrong 2009-07-08 09:55 am UTC (link)
	"Fuck that. That? Is why I don't do love. It's bullshit." She didn't like what Ate was saying. Not at all. "And no, I don't know how that is. I'm not jealous of that pussy little Angel bitch. Who can't even confront me like he's got a dick." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

banishedruin
2009-07-08 06:01 pm UTC (link)

"I meant you know jealousy... he's your cousin. He's a prick. Because jealous is a bitch. But I get it. I do." The pacing was bothering her, so she grabbed Kia lightly around the waist, pulling her back a bit. "You had a toy that you really liked to play with... it was a great toy. And someone came and took that toy away. And just because it was his toy doesn't mean you have to like the fact that you can't play with it. But Kia... There are a fuckload of toys out there. And there's no one toy that's the end all be all of the entertainment world."

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	colormewrong 2009-07-08 06:32 pm UTC (link)
	The pacing was distracting her and once Ate stopped it, Kia's eyes started to well up again. "He was more than just a toy. There...there was something there. On my side anyway and I thought it might have..." She shook her head and wiped the tears off her cheeks. "But I was wrong." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banishedruin 2009-07-08 06:59 pm UTC (link)
	"Oh, c'mon, little girl. What man's worth this kind of crying?" Ate wrapped her arms up around her tighter, rocking lightly. "I don't think it means there was nothing. Just... maybe not enough. Love's kind of a bitch." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	colormewrong 2009-07-08 07:05 pm UTC (link)
	"Love has nothing to do with it." She sniffed and shook her head. Ate was right he wasn't worth her tears. "Fuck him. Fuck the Angel. Fuck them. I need some more alcohol." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banishedruin 2009-07-08 07:12 pm UTC (link)
	"Not on your part, maybe..." Not that Ate believed that, really. "But on his. With the Angel. We've got at least another few cases with your name on it." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	colormewrong 2009-07-08 08:39 pm UTC (link)
	"Good. I don't want to be lucid for awhile." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banishedruin 2009-07-08 08:50 pm UTC (link)
	"Lack of lucidity is a good start. Then you get back at whoever hurt you." It made perfect sense to Ruin. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	colormewrong 2009-07-08 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	Kia had already moved to the case of Jack but stopped dead at Ate's words and looked back at her sister. "Revenge?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banishedruin 2009-07-08 09:03 pm UTC (link)
	"Well, yeah." She lifted a brow slowly as she watched her sister. "Unless you planned on acting like some cherub and just let someone hurt you?" She adored and Dite, for that matter, but damn if the erotes weren't the mopiest bunch she ever met. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	colormewrong 2009-07-08 09:08 pm UTC (link)
	She blinked at her words. Revenge hadn't even entered her mind. Kia'd just been focused on her pain and anger. But the idea was appealing...incredibly so. "I don't usually, do I?" It wasn't a real question, she knew she liked to take her anger out of the people that hurt her. "I don't like being rejected." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

banishedruin
2009-07-08 09:24 pm UTC (link)

Aw yeah. There was her sister. "Of course you don't. Why should you... look at you. Anyone rejecting that is a fool. If something's going to be over, it should be on your terms, right? He hurt you, so the only thing to do is hurt him back."

And this... this she understood. For all that she was disturbingly in love herself, she didn't bother even pretending to understand it, and tears, well... tears weren't something she was good at either. Bullying her siblings until they manned up, or ruining someone else? These were things she understood and could get behind.

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	colormewrong 2009-07-09 01:35 am UTC (link)
	Kia thought about it, even entertained the idea for a moment. Then shook her head sadly. "No. I just want to be done with it. I'll quit in the morning. I want nothing to do with them any more." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banishedruin 2009-07-09 03:37 am UTC (link)
	Oh, it was worse than she thought. Nodding, she just took a seat, tipping back the bottle of wine she held. "Drink up, then." (Reply to this) (Parent)