His hands ran up and down her back, fingers moving under her shirt just to feel her warmth. He needed that connection just then, to know she was really and truly there. "Cass left. I asked if Henn and I could sleep with Maison, and Cass left. And I should've realized it, I mean, it makes sense, but he left because he's jealous of Maison. And I get that now. I thought he was upset about me being with anyone else in general. He does that sometimes." He breathed hard, sometimes having to pause to keep himself from crying again. "I can't lose you, Sable. I need you. I need Cass too, always have, but I love you so much. And I never show it, and I'm a terrible husband and a worse friend and I just - I'm going to end up alone again and everyone's upset and it's my fault. I know that. Nobody can convince me otherwise. I did this. Me."