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Yamamura Sadako was mankind's end. (wheniamqueen) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2009-05-20 00:27:00

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sadako yamamura

Who: Sadako Yamamura and 359
What: Ice cream and chatting.
When: Tuesday night.
Where: The Mordhaus kitchen.
Warnings: Possibly, yes!

Sadako went barefoot to the kitchen, telling the chef that she'd like an ice cream sundae with chocolate and raspberries, as she usually had. She smiled to herself, stretching and sitting down where she knew 359 would find her. Having a friend was helping very much with her feelings - which were punctuated with nightmares, something she hadn't had since she'd lived her first life.

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robyngraves
2009-05-20 01:58 am UTC (link)

359 was somewhat concerned about Sadako, and equally grateful to put aside writing the Klokateer schedule, so she bounded down to the kitchen in short enough time. She grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge, managing to stay out of the way of the chef who, even when he wasn't really doing anything, always managed to seem extraordinarily busy. The Klokateer slid into a chair near her friend and flashed a grin. "Hey."

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	wheniamqueen 2009-05-20 02:03 am UTC (link)
	Sadako smiled in return. "Hello, 359. Long day?" She cocked her head to the side, looking over her friend and trying to read her body language instead of her thoughts. It was something normal people did, and she was trying to be more normal for the sake of her son and future grandchild. (Reply to this)

robyngraves
2009-05-20 02:17 am UTC (link)

"Bout average I guess. I was getting an early start on the schedule for next month. I hate writing it- so many damn people to place and they keep dying so I have to keep revising..." She shrugged and cut herself off. "Not too bad, anyway." She was in a decent mood.

"How about you? Holding up okay?" That seemed like the proper thing to ask. Like Sadako, she was trying to be more normal these days. There was a fine line in between what was an asset to her job and what was detrimental. Of course, normal how-are-you type questions were easiest to remember when talking to someone she gave a shit about, like now.

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	wheniamqueen 2009-05-20 02:21 am UTC (link)
	"Some days are better than others." She sighed and ran her fingers through her hair, an absent-minded gesture she'd never been able to shake. "I wish - he erased bits of my memory. I don't mind having the memories back, just those returning coupled with the loss of him. And I've nobody who thinks I'm truly hurting, everyone seems to be of the opinion I'm better off for it." (Reply to this)

robyngraves
2009-05-20 02:38 am UTC (link)

She nodded, able to imagine what the memory issue must feel like. "Painful reminders." Like cleaning out an attic and finding things they'd left behind.

359 shook her head at the last part. While comforting the bereaved was outside her skill set, talking about death and its effects on people was much easier to talk about. "People don't think you're better off. They think they're better off. People are always thinking about themselves first. And if you're not on the same page, you're in the way of their self-acceptance so your feelings must be wrong." She chuckled. "They're always so willing to fabricate villains out of victims."

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wheniamqueen
2009-05-20 02:42 am UTC (link)

That made Sadako smile, though it was mostly directed at her hands. "I can't fault Teja for what he did. He's my son, and I want the best for him. Including his freedom. I just didn't want it to be at my expense." Sighing, she shook her head, pleased when the chef brought out her sundae, and two spoons. Offering one to 359, she scooped up a raspberry and idly munched. "I'll endure. I'm good at it. I wasn't ever meant for proper happiness anyway."

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robyngraves
2009-05-20 02:55 am UTC (link)

"It made logical sense, for himself and for the Corporation." She couldn't fault Teja either, not that she'd ever really try. "Doesn't mean you can't feel what you feel." She politely waved off the offer of a spoon and stuck to her water. Too much sugar, not enough substance.

"Fuck that. Who says you can't be happy?" Coming from one who shares the same belief this might be hypocrisy, but 359 couldn't seriously imagine Sadako unhappy forever.

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	wheniamqueen 2009-05-20 03:02 am UTC (link)
	"I know." Sadako ate her ice cream languidly, almost as if she were bored with it, running her tongue over her spoon like a cat. "I do. I haven't been very often, and as soon as I am, the person I'm happy with disappears. To tell the truth, I'm waiting for Teja to go." (Reply to this)

robyngraves
2009-05-20 03:19 am UTC (link)

359 remembered Sweeney and nodded. "You do have a bad track record." That was awfully tactless. Something she figured out only after she said it. "Fuck. Look, that was what, over the course of a year? And you have... a billion left, at least. If you find a decent person every... six months like you seem to, that's um... Two billion people. One of them has got to stay." Math is hard.

"And as far as Teja goes? He's already left, and come back again. I wouldn't worry about him. Even if he leaves, he only leaves to go back to the future, right? You just have to wait for him to be born." Timelines are also hard.

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wheniamqueen
2009-05-20 03:25 am UTC (link)

"It doesn't seem to console me as it should, though I believe your math is sound. I'm not very good at it either." She grinned and leaned closer to 359, looking for all the world like a teenager sharing stories about a difficult university course. "If I'd had parents, I'm sure my marks would have disappointed them. Mother died when I was younger." She shrugged and licked some errant chocolate sauce off of her thumb.

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robyngraves
2009-05-20 03:35 am UTC (link)

"No I know, math isn't too comforting." She smirked. "I stopped going to school when I was... thirteen, I think. Came back to murder my parents after I would've been in college. I'm sure they would've been pissed about my shaky math too, if they hadn't been worried about where their intestines were going that last time I saw them."

Watching Sadako right there made her wish she liked chocolate.

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wheniamqueen
2009-05-20 03:39 am UTC (link)

"What did they do? If you don't mind my asking." She could have plucked the information from 359's brain, but instead, she preferred to be told. Word choice, inflection - all those things told a story beyond actual facts; in addition to finding out what had happened, it would tell her how 359 felt about it having happened. Which was what Sadako found far more interesting. "My mother killed herself. She threw herself into a volcano." Sadako had predicted the eruption a few months prior. It had been fitting.

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robyngraves
2009-05-20 03:51 am UTC (link)

359 told the story with a blank expression, her voice back to her old monotone, like it had happened to someone else and was no more exciting than the weather. "They blamed me for my brother's death, which happened when I was five. They locked me in the basement in a cage until my sister helped me escape. When I heard my sister died, I came back to finish off the rest."

The little bits of humanity slowly seeped back in. "Why'd your mom throw herself in the volcano? Because of what you are?" If anyone understood the logic of insane parents, it was 359.

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wheniamqueen
2009-05-20 03:58 am UTC (link)

One day, Sadako wondered if she'd be able to ever see 359 speak with actual emotion about her past, but it made sense to her why the other woman had blocked it out. It seemed the sensible thing for someone with no means for revenge to do. If she herself hadn't been able to kill everyone, Sadako would have just let herself die.

"Oh, no, she was like me as well. Not as developed, but she could predict numbers, dice rolls, things of that nature. The media attempted to pass her off as a fraud and said that she was a con. After that my father left." Shrugging, she shook her head. "Mother wasn't the same after his death. I killed the reporters that did it - but it didn't really help. I was nine then."

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	robyngraves 2009-05-20 04:09 am UTC (link)
	She'd taken out s good chunk of the town on that last trip along with her folks, but it hadn't been enough, so she could understand that. "Yeah, sometimes you can just keep killing people but it doesn't undo the damage already done. Kill the whole world and it wouldn't make a damn bit of difference." A pause. "You already know all about that, though." (Reply to this)

	wheniamqueen 2009-05-20 04:14 am UTC (link)
	"Yes. It's why I stopped after a few hundred this time. Now I have too many people I want to keep, and I know it won't change anything." She pushed aside her ice cream, half of it uneaten. "But it does feel good, though." She ran her fingers lightly over the inside of her left wrist, where his sigil had once been scarred into her skin. (Reply to this)

robyngraves
2009-05-20 09:37 pm UTC (link)

"Can't beat the squishy sensation of murder," 359 agreed with a twitch of a smile. "Whether or not it fixes anything or just creates more holes."

She reached out and took Sadako's wrist in her hand to look at it. "Lost your badge too. Even you don't have control over that." She looked down, a little sad that she'd lost all of hers as well. But she didn't need the reminders anymore. After she quit coke and the rebirth she wasn't worried about doing damage to her brain, so she knew she'd always keep the memories.

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	wheniamqueen 2009-05-21 12:19 am UTC (link)
	"All yours are gone as well." Sadako smiled and reached out to touch 359's cheek, stroking fondly. "I barely recognize you. You're beautiful both ways, but was it worth it? I'd birth you again if I had to." (Reply to this)

	wheniamqueen 2009-05-21 02:02 am UTC (link)
	"That's the truth," she murmured. Leaning forward, she lightly kissed 359, a friendly gesture that was only spurred by the fact she'd nuzzled into her palm. I'm glad you enjoyed yourself. I wouldn't do that for just anyone, you know. (Reply to this)

	wheniamqueen 2009-05-21 02:58 am UTC (link)
	Chuckling, Sadako was still smiling, even after the rough kiss. It was how she preferred them, really. "What, you don't want to be in anyone else's uterus? I doubt that's very likely." (Reply to this)