She gave a small sigh and snorted, rolling onto her back, "My mom had it.. I mean it won't kill me.. but.. if I have it, I'd might as well be dead.." she hated that her mother had become only a shell of what she was before. "I could.. actually get tested.. I keep.. putting it off because I don't want to know. But.. I could get my.. eggs tested too. I don't want to pass that on to a kid.. I just.. don't want to do what my mother did to me y'know?"