He always knew how to make her feel better, she was grateful for that too. "Yeah. I don't want to .. not be me. I like being me and yeah he made me who I am.. it's just. I don't know. I told you I don't know how to explain it."
Her hands ran through her hair and she curled her knees up to her chest again. "Guess so but I don't know how I'm supposed to do that when I keep waking up with these stupid nightmares and.. I'm pretty sure if he was here, he'd be upset with the kind of woman I've become."