Then Vivian drew up his legs and sat down on the bed, rocking back and forth when she asked that question. He didn't look at her, merely stared off towards a wall. "I wanted Claire to be the mommy but she didn't love me like I loved her. She drowned and I was locked away...never to see the day," he rambled as he rocked. "She came to me in my dreams like I came to her...bleeding...screaming..." She could probably take that as he'd never been with a girl before.