"I don't want Keller!" Elliot suddenly cried out, standing as he began pacing frantically. "I've fucking never wanted him, Sully. I just can't turn away from him. I..." Shaking his head he pressed his palms to his eyes, rubbing them. "He controls me. If I say no what's to keep him from raping me again? As long as I'm ready and willing he makes it good."