If she'd known she wouldn't have blamed him in the slightest. If someone had shown up that was Josh but wasn't, she would have gone with him without hesitation. Vaguely she remembered telling Rose the first time she met her that some things were worth getting your heart broken for, and to her that was one of them. At least it had been, but then Josh hadn't shown up, no matter what universe she was in.
Her shoulder shrugged a little, "It doesn't make anything better, but it helps me forget. I haven't.. I mean I didn't used to. It just sort of happened.. after.. all the stuff on the Dauntless.." she trailed off, looking almost embarrassed about it, and she never tried to feel guilty. "The point I think is that you shouldn't call women old girl. You sound like your former self and Harry."