He wasn't ashamed, though he knew he should have been - which was more shameful, in his mind.
"Is nothings I don'ts knows how to handles on. I does on it aforsince I was beings a vury young." He eyed the door, as if his younger self was right there. "De youngselfs is does on it alreadies. I is asks on him to stops it but dats ain'ts goings to change nothings. He is beings me, nobodies is tells me what to be doings abouts in dat age." He shook his head. "I is OD a lots of times, but I gots smarts abouts it." As smart as he ever got, at least.
He shook his head, "I is does it every two hours to keeps it in de systems so dats I ain'ts goes and gets in pains. I remembers on tryings to quits it back in Dethklok but... dats don'ts works too well. Toki is tries to gets me to stops a hundreds zillions times." He shrugged one shoulder again and turned away, crossing his arms and huffing. "And I don'ts know why I tells at you abouts all dis."