Watching as he went to get another set of drinks from the bar, she finished her second drink in record time, all but downing it. "I don't know," she answered when he finally came back. "Having kids changes things. It's not like I want them to have to go back and forth between homes ... and it's not like I even hate him or even dislike him.. it's just.." she shook her head.
"Who am I to compete with some chick he's been pining over for fucking ages? Especially when she's ... well she was gonna live a long healthy life. But she's dead.. and if she's dead.. is he gonna come crawling back just because she's dead?" She shook her head. "I don't want to be in second place. No fucking person wants that. Period." she held out her glass for him to fill up.