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Tweak says, "Can you hear drums?"

Joanne Walker (Walker Papers) (urbanshaman) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2008-06-11 21:15:00

Entry tags:

joanne walker, movie phantom

Who: Erik and Joanne
What: She's dying
When: Sometime this week, I'll leave it kinda vague
Where: Their home
Warnings: Uh... death? :D

It had been a long couple of days since Joanne had been infected when she had touched the ghost. The tattoo was spreading up over her body at a slow rate, but she'd had it for days now, and she knew that her time was getting close. It was a wonder that she was even conscious, but she had been going in and out since she'd gotten the tattoo.

Sometimes she'd be awake for hours, sometimes only for a moment. She laid on the bed, her breathing labored and she was sweating and pale and looked horrible. After all things, she didn't want it to be like this. But she was never as strong as she thought she was. Her eyes opened and she looked around for Erik, knowing he was close by somewhere. She needed to see him.

Before it was too late.

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ex_theoperag166
2008-06-12 01:51 am UTC (link)

He'd been dabbing the sweat away from her face, and had just stepped into the bathroom to rinse out the cloth and refreshen it. Erik had the sternest expression on his face, like he was forcing himself to be brave, to hold on for her. She looked wretched, and he'd resigned himself that he could not do anything to help her despite the extensive knowledge he possessed. It was supernatural, something he was ill equipped to handle.

So he'd been waiting with her, sleeping very little, eating even less, just to stay by her side. He didn't want her to die. He needed her. The thought of being alone all over again scared him.

He returned shortly and sat down on the edge of the bed with the wet washcloth, wiping her cheeks and forehead softly as he forced a smile to his lips. It was all he could do not to weep bitter tears over this.

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urbanshaman
2008-06-12 01:59 am UTC (link)

Finally she saw him come back into the room and sit down beside her on the bed. He was smiling, but she could tell he was just trying to make her not so scared. She managed to smile back, briefly. To be honest, the pain was kind of something she barely felt anymore because it was so constant. She was so tired, she almost wanted this to hurry up so she could rest.

But she didn't want to leave him all alone. She licked her lips, barely and her eyes shut for a moment before looking back up at him. "I need.." she said slowly, "You to lie down next to me.. please.." look, she was even being nice.

"It's almost time."

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ex_theoperag166
2008-06-12 02:10 am UTC (link)

Time? Time for what? No, it couldn't be time yet. Not yet. Erik's face twisted at those words and the calm smile quickly faded from his lips into a frown of discontent. He was angry this happened, that this entity was roaming free while he had to watch someone he loved very much die. Wringing the cloth in his hands, he slowly crawled into the bed beside her and tucked himself as close as he could next to her. Lightly, his fingers came up to touch her lips, tracing them up to her cheekbones, tears rimming his eyes. "Please don't leave me, Joanne. I need you...." and he swallowed a sob.

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urbanshaman
2008-06-12 02:19 am UTC (link)

She really really didn't want him to cry, but it wasn't like she could stop him. Even if she asked, it probably wouldn't have mattered. She didn't move much, just let him move beside her on the bed and then felt his hands against her skin. That made it better, it made it not hurt so much.

"I'm sorry," she whispered. She wanted to touch him but it was so hard to move any part of her. "I don't want to.. but I'm not afraid.." okay, maybe she was a little afraid. "And I won't leave you completely.. I'll always be around.. whatever happens after this.."

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ex_theoperag166
2008-06-12 02:27 am UTC (link)

"But I want you here....I want to be able to touch you...kiss you..." and he brushed his lips over her cheek as his fingers entwined with one of her hands and pressed over her heart. He could feel that it was much slower than it should be, and all he could do was squeeze her hand. "I'm afraid...I'm afraid of losing you..." and just then tears streamed down his face as he squeezed his eyes shut, a few hitting her skin as they trailed down his cheeks. Erik hadn't cried in a very long time.

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urbanshaman
2008-06-12 02:35 am UTC (link)

Neither had Joanne, and now that he was crying, she knew that if there were any tears left in her, they were going to fall, and soon. Feeling him squeeze her hand, she tried so hard to squeeze his hand in return, but she barely could move. It was amazing that she was even talking to him. "Don't be afraid.. you'll be okay. I know you will.." and then she started to cry. Mostly for him, because she never wanted to cause anyone this much pain. The crying caused her to start shaking, maybe from the cold. She was so cold. "I'm so sorry.."

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ex_theoperag166
2008-06-12 02:46 am UTC (link)

Erik knew how much pain she was in, and he really didn't want to jostle her around, but he pulled her into his embrace fully, his face buried against her neck as he broke down completely. This man, once so proud and offputting, appeared as nothing more of a shell, that he did have feelings for the woman in his arms and he'd waited too late to say anything. "I love you..." he kept saying over and over, the words mingled with thick sobs.

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urbanshaman
2008-06-12 03:01 am UTC (link)

It was nice because he was warm, and now he had his arms around her, it made her feel a little better. Barely she moved her arms up as best as she could, putting her hands against his chest, and when he pressed his face against her, her own face was pressed against his neck. "I love you too.." she hated that she was only saying it now, and hadn't done so before. She'd been so stubborn and such an idiot. She was still shaking a little, but her breathing was really starting to slow down, and so was her heart. Her eyes shut, but she still seemed there.

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ex_theoperag166
2008-06-13 08:11 am UTC (link)

He couldn't understand why she couldn't heal herself with her so-called mysticism or doing something. But he was lucky she'd held on this long. There were others who were probably already dead. He just wanted her to stay. That's all he wanted. Erik was not the kind of man who asked for much having lived with so little for so long. Her small gestures of affection were breaking his heart as he held her; so still in his arms. Why had he waited so long to tell her?

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urbanshaman
2008-06-13 08:29 am UTC (link)

Her eyes didn't open anymore, but she pressed her lips up against his ear, "When I go.. leave the house. Don't stay. Not safe. Please." yeah she was asking him nicely on her death bed. She knew somehow what was coming and what would go on afterwards. She didn't want him to get hurt. "I'll be waiting.." and then she whispered that she loved him again. That's when her heart stopped beating and she went completely limp in his arms.

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ex_theoperag166
2008-06-14 12:48 am UTC (link)

Waiting? What did she mean? And he felt her fall limp in his embrace, making him cling to her tighter. He'd buried his face in her neck and just held her for a moment, getting it all out as best he could because he knew he would have to run soon. He'd have to do as she had said and leave her behind. Wiping away the few errant tears, Erik set her body back down on the bed and crawled off of it. Before he left her, he situated her peacefully in the center and drew a blanket up over her body, kissed her cheek and got out of there as quickly as possible.

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