"I told you I'd try. I broke my own...fucking rules...for you. I really, truly, did," he said, venom in his voice. His anger wasn't directed at Dean though. He was angry at himself. Angry for attempting something he knew was going to hurt people. "If I wouldn't have...I wouldn't...I wouldn't feel like such a horrible fucking person for what I'm going to say. I wouldn't...fucking care," he commented.