"You might after I tell you," Lavender said, her voice even quieter yet and she stepped back from him, crossing her arms. "I know it was terrible for me to just not talk to you. I needed to figure something out and I was freaking out and freaking you out and I'm just really sorry. And you don't have to stay around once I tell you and I just want you to know that okay?" She didn't want to ruin his life. And she didn't want him just to stay because he felt obligated. That would be even worse than him hating her. She couldn't live with herself if she made Seamus resent her because of... things.