Colin's smile brightened a little when Justin said he could see it. "I feel it a lot, but sometimes I feel better when I can see it." He paused. That didn't sound right. "I mean...sometimes I feel it, but I don't always realize it until I see it." He hummed softly. "I don't think I really realized when I started to feel it until I looked at the pictures."
He felt a slight shiver run down his spine as Justin looked at him. "I liked not knowing," he said after a moment, blushing slightly. "I mean...not knowing together. I liked not knowing together." He frowned a little at himself. "I wish we could go back to not knowing together, but I messed it all up. I messed it all up by knowing." He peered at Justin quietly for a moment. "But I still don't know everything." Colin shivered once more at the thought of Justin pushing him up against the wall. That he hadn't known before. "I like that you are tall and that your hair is funny and that your nose scrunches up when you laugh or smile. I like that because of you, everything breaded has the potential to be a star. Even french toast."
He smiled as he looked at him. "I like that you are good at decisions and good at talking and good at knowing all these things I don't know. I like the idea of teaching you what I know...even if I feel guilty that I know." Fidgeting slightly, Colin looked at him. "I know that what I did was wrong. At least...how I did it. I can't be sorry for loving two people, but I can be sorry that I didn't think to ask first...before anything else happened. Not knowing isn't a very good excuse." There was a brief pause before he stared at one of his knees. "Is eating crust for the rest of forever a good enough punishment? I promise to always make all your sandwiches uncrusted and shaped like stars. Your french toast, too. No crust till I can no longer cut crust off bread."