Colin stared at her for a moment, eyes lowering once she finished talking. "I...I know. I know he does. I know." That didn't make it easier, because Justin really loved him, too. It just...it didn't. He wanted it to make it easier, but it never really did. He wanted to make everyone happy, but he couldn't. He hated making anyone unhappy, but he knew he would. He knew. "It is Zach. I wish it wasn't so difficult. I wish it could be easy to decide." His heart was getting more confused the longer time passed.
Another moment passed and he leaned over, resting against his legs and making a small, defeated noise. "I hate this. I hate all of it and sometimes it makes me wish that I had never fallen in love. Sometimes it makes me wish I didn't know that kissing and adult touching existed. I didn't know until Zach told me. I didn't know at all. He's very bad at explaining, though. At least about kissing and adult touching. I guess that's called sex, though. Well...most of it. There is still adult touching that isn't sex. I don't know. It doesn't really make much sense to me. I told Mum about them. I haven't talked to her yet, though. Five years...I want my mum. I want her to know what to do...cause maybe then I would know what to do."