The world had entirely changed, shifted, and he really wasn't used to being in this world, this world where his father was going to know he was gay, this world where Zach was going to tell him and demanded on telling him himself, this world where he had this moment where he wasn't a coward, he wasn't running, and whatever that meant. It was really really surreal.
Zach kissed Colin back, and he was smiling. Colin loved him, and he loved Colin. And the rest of it...Zach didn't know how that was going to work out. But that was okay. "I don't know," Zach admitted, "It felt so impossible after Cedric died, and I wasn't looking for it. But I still found you, and I fell in love with you. It's not been that with anyone else."
And it felt strange, and really it was only a moment's thought, but Zach realized he hadn't ever told Colin about it. It hadn't seemed the most important, and Colin had had other people too then. "Oh," Zach exclaimed, "I'd been, I've been...not seeing someone, it's not like that. But there's a bloke...we've been shagging. It's just sex, generally. Um, rough sex. I don't know if you'd like it. I wasn't hiding it, I promise. I just...I never thought." He felt awfully stupid, and it was getting really hard to string words together in sentences and have them come out. And damn it, if that messed everything up again, well. At least Colin knew now. Zach wasn't hiding anything from him.