Colin listened, making a vested effort to remain silent until Zach was done talking. There had been a lot of talking. Not that that was bad. It was good. Once he was done, Colin stayed quiet for a moment. "I love you, too," he started. He let out a sigh. "Dennis says it isn't allowed to love two people. He says I should know that. He says Mum and Dad never loved anyone else...and I just made a mistake." That had hurt. He hadn't meant to make a mistake. "I didn't mean to."
He moved closer to Zach, curling against him. "I have to choose one. Only one. I don't want to hide. I can't hide. I don't know how to hide. I told you that. I know you want kids and everything. I don't know if I'd be much good with kids or for them. I want to do all sorts of things and if I'm wrong about love, then I guess this means giving up on love with anyone else. No more mistakes. I didn't mean to make them."
There was a slight pause as he looked up at Zach. "I don't want to give you up. I don't want to ever give you up. I just need to know...if I have to hide. I need to know that. If I have to hide, I don't think I can stay. It wouldn't be fair. I don't know what to do about the rest of it just now. I don't know what to think about it. It's a lot to think about."