He was getting nervous. And his hands went to find his pack of cigarettes usually on hand for this sort of thing. But he looked at Adie. "Fuck, it's not good to smoke around babies is it?" Zach asked, half-rhetorically. He put the pack away, just to be on the safe side. No Adie wasn't alive, but it wasn't good to get in the habit of smoking near a baby.
Instead, he started biting on his nails. And his lower lip. Fuck, he really could use a smoke or something. But he waited for Theo to read, to see what he took from the questions, from the writing, and all...that. And stuff. "I...I never, I mean, I never even thought about the idea of it," Zach admitted, "of being...like that, that I could be like that. It's...I mean, I want to be with Colin. And hell, it'd be really cool if we could get married, you know, two blokes, marrying and um, but I wasn't just telling him about it because it's something I have to do.
"I want to have a son or daughter or both or something that're...mine, actually my genes. I want to name her Adele, actually," Zach knew that was a side issue, but that also related to Theo, "but why does it have to be or? Why does it have to be only one person? Family isn't just...one person and however many kids you raise. It's...it's you and Ven and Tracey too probably, especially if you two...whatever. And I don't know if you'd all want to be there, but I mean, if it were just what I want and everyone would be happy like that, then...I'd want you all to be there. Including the mother of my...children. I want more children, too, actually, but I want to adopt them, beyond the ones that're um...mine."
Zach stopped talking because he felt like it was rambling. "And I'm not even sure exactly what he wants," Zach sighed.