Zach wanted to know what to do, wanted to figure stuff out, and his brain was all over the place, along with his heart. And it was hard to just keep track of how he felt, of what he thought, and trying to put it into words. Well, Zach was just trying to explain the what had happened right now, not the feelings. Luckily.
"I started telling my boyf- Colin about it, since I want to have a family, with him, and...a woman and you and lots of people around to be a real family, but anyway, he...he didn't take it very well, and then...and then he wrote this," Zach held out his journal because he failed at putting stuff in words, at just saying, explaining. It was so much easier just to show Theo.