Colin couldn't help but flinch a little. He'd never been really good with conflict, with being pushed. The more Zach talked, the more frustrated he felt. He just wanted to be there, be part of Zach's life. What was so difficult to understand about that? Why couldn't he just- And then Colin just stood up. He suddenly had to move, to do anything.
He moved around to the other side of the table, frowning as he started to pace a little. "You're so," he started and cut himself off. "You don't get it, do you?" He paused just briefly to look at him before moving again. "I love you...and I've never felt this before for anyone but Justin and now Justin's gone and I'm scared. I'm scared that I'll get caught just like Justin or worse, Dennis will get caught. I have nightmares about Dementors and Justin and Rose and not even being in the same room as Dennis, the same bed can stop them."
"And then there's you." He looked at him. "You make me less scared. I haven't had a single nightmare after being with you. You chase away everything that scares me just by being you. So leaving means nightmares but as far as you are concerned, staying means nothing good either." His voice broke a little at the end and dropped to barely more than a whisper. "Why is it so difficult just to be happy? It was never difficult before but now I keep having to fight for it and I'm tired."