That's really something you'll have to answer for yourself.
Personally, I've trained my whole life to defend my people, and as a Chosen One, it's become even more of a duty to uphold. While I'll agree that some of the choices I've had to make aren't easy, I don't regret them if it means some measurement of safety for my planet.
maybe you just need a mental health break, take a day or two to sort things out.