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Tweak says, "Green Bastard, parts unknown!"

Tobias Beecher [Oz] (otherofoz) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2008-02-25 23:34:00

Entry tags:

chris keller, tobias beecher

[Chris] I fucked up. I really, really fucked up.

I'm sorry.

[Private] Ray and Pete were right. I love him too much, and it's going to get me fucking killed. I almost feel like I deserve it.

'Hope Saïd's been putting in a good word for me, with Allah. S'looking like I could use it.

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	Beecher willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 05:21 am UTC (link)
	~~I show you how much I fucking care, I try, I try and you fucking run off. I try and it's wrong, I loved that so much and I'm disgusting for it, I hate it.~~ I don't care if you fucking get high, Beecher. Hell, I'll get high with you. Whatever. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Keller

otherofoz
2008-02-26 05:30 am UTC (link)

No. You're not disgusting, Chris, stop. I wasn't running from that. I loved it, and it... God, and you say I'm thick sometimes.

Chris, I love you. And... call me a fag, hate me for it all you want, but.. last night was perfect, you were... are perfect, here, and it... scared me, okay? I was convinced that I was going to... snap out of this shit, wake up back on the bus and have this all just being a fucking huge joke on me. So.. I panicked. I ran.

If one of us is disgusting, it's me. And I don't deserve you saying it's alright, but... no, there's nothing else. I- I'm sorry, Chris.

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	Beecher willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 05:42 am UTC (link)
	Where the fuck are you, anyway? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chris otherofoz 2008-02-26 05:51 am UTC (link)
	Santa Barbra. It's where the portkey was. I- Are you still in California? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Beecher willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 05:53 am UTC (link)
	What the fuck do you think? I was waiting for you like some asshole. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chris otherofoz 2008-02-26 05:56 am UTC (link)
	Just- stay there, okay? I'll be back, ten minutes, we can... talk, fuck, you can kick the shit out of me for all I care. Just be there, please. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Beecher willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 05:59 am UTC (link)
	Whatever. I'll be here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chris otherofoz 2008-02-26 06:01 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I love you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Beecher willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 06:02 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, whatever. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chris otherofoz 2008-02-26 06:12 am UTC (link)
	Don't do this. Please, Chris. Baby, please. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Beecher willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 06:16 am UTC (link)
	I didn't do anything. I'm not doing fucking anything, Beecher. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chris otherofoz 2008-02-26 06:17 am UTC (link)
	That's why I'm 'Beecher' again, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Beecher willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 06:24 am UTC (link)
	Listen, Toby, I can be just as fucking pissed and call you whatever the fuck I want, alright? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chris otherofoz 2008-02-26 06:26 am UTC (link)
	You're right. You're not going to let me fix this. Drop a line when you calm the fuck down. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Beecher willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 06:27 am UTC (link)
	What the Hell? You're leaving me here? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chris otherofoz 2008-02-26 06:31 am UTC (link)
	You don't sound like you have any interest in seeing me. And contrary to popular belief, I'm not interested in pounding my head against a wall, faced with the prospect of dope withdrawl. It's your choice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Beecher willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 06:33 am UTC (link)
	~~I love you and I hate myself. Any way to fucking switch, so I don't have to fucking see myself but I can see you?~~ I want to see you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Chris otherofoz 2008-02-26 06:49 am UTC (link)
	I'll be there in ten minutes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Toby willkillfortoby 2008-02-26 07:04 am UTC (link)
	Okay. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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