I don't understand much of it yet, but that 'link' provided some information. We are not from the same....place. Uther Pendragon was long dead in my world. I do not know you. I am not the Nimueh you and Merlin knew.
That is why you hate magic, then. Your loss is unfortunate, but not all magic is evil. The world does not revolve around you. Many lives have been improved by it.