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Elena Gilbert (notkatherine) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2010-10-26 16:20:00

Entry tags:

damon salvatore (tv), elena gilbert

I'm used to weird things happening around me, but I'm not even home anymore. Where am I?

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	renaissancevamp 2010-10-27 12:44 am UTC (link)
	~~El...~~ So. Are you one Elena Gilbert, one Katherine Pierce, or one someone with their face who has no idea who the hell I am? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	notkatherine 2010-10-27 04:54 pm UTC (link)
	Damon. You know who I am, unless you're still drunk and trying to kill other members of my family because I wouldn't kiss you back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	renaissancevamp 2010-10-27 05:04 pm UTC (link)
	What the hell are you talking about? I wouldn't hurt anyone in your family. Well... except perhaps Jon, but that goes without saying since he tried to kill me. And you did kiss me back, or are you conveniently forgetting my little speech and smooch on your porch to save face with Stefan? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notkatherine
2010-10-27 05:12 pm UTC (link)

Katherine tried to kill him and he left town so there's no reason to...

Why am i trying to reason with you. We had this talk. You kissed Katherine not me. You got pissed off and tried to kiss me and when I told you I wanted Stefan so you snapped Jeremy's neck and killed him.

God, I don't even know where I am and you of all ~~vampires~~ people have to talk to me right now? Go away. You hurt me enough as it is, Damon.

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	renaissancevamp 2010-10-27 05:15 pm UTC (link)
	Did you hit your head or something when you landed in this place? I would never hurt you, Elena. Not intentionally. ~~I love you...~~ Look, just... go to [THIS] website, it explains everything. Just read carefully, it's very bright and blinding. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notkatherine
2010-10-27 05:26 pm UTC (link)

You DID, Damon. You killed Jeremy and watched me hold his body before you walked away and left me alone. I don't know what Katherine said or did to you other than making you think I was the one who was kissing you, and I don't care. ~~I know you do.~~

I... what? I can't go back? Great. So I'm stuck here, wherever here is, with you. Thank God Jeremy had John's ring on, at least... not that I'll ever see him again. ~~Or Stefan. Or Aunt Jenna.~~

I'm really stuck with just you?

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renaissancevamp
2010-10-27 05:32 pm UTC (link)

I have absolutely NO clue what you are talking about, Elena. The last time I saw you was right after I kissed you on your porch and Jenna told you to... ~~dammit no. NO!~~

Yes, you are stuck with just me. Sorry to break it to you that I'm not St. Stefan. By the way, a version of him is here but I doubt he'll recognize you. At least he was, the vortex may have sucked him back out again since it apparently did to another version of me that was here previously.

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	notkatherine 2010-10-27 05:43 pm UTC (link)
	Damon... that wasn't me. We talked about this... Katherine kissed you pretending to be me. Why would you think I would want to kiss you? ~~I cared about you, but now...~~ I hate this. I hate... ~~you~~. I don't want to be alone right now, but I don't trust you anymore, Damon. Give me one good reason why I should. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

renaissancevamp
2010-10-27 05:47 pm UTC (link)

We didn't talk about this, Elena. As I said, I haven't seen you since the porch. Or apparently, now that you are saying this, who I thought was you.

Why do I think you would want to kiss me? Do you want the snarky answer or the honest one?

Yeah well... it's not the easiest of things to deal with.

Because despite what you *think* I did, it wasn't me. At least not this me. And I never would. And if that me did? Well... the only thing that could make me snap was if my heart was crushed. Because despite what you may think, beating or not, I do have one. And only two people I have ever known have had the power to crush me. Both of them have the same face.

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notkatherine
2010-10-27 05:55 pm UTC (link)

The honest one, Damon. I don't know how much I can deal with your snarky attempts to cover up how you're really feeling right now.

You don't think straight when it comes to Katherine, Damon. And me...? I thought we were friends. I know I hurt you once but I thought I made up for it and that... that...

Can I see you, then? Someplace safe. If you say it wasn't you, then we need to talk.

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renaissancevamp
2010-10-27 06:03 pm UTC (link)

Okay, the honest one.

Despite everything, including your denial (and I know you are going to deny it), there is something between us. And I don't mean just friendship. There is a deeper connection there, even deeper than I thought possible.

Perhaps you are right, but I loved her for almost two centuries. She turned my world upside down back then and now I just want to know the truth from her. That's it. I need to know why I wasted all that time, only to discover it was for nothing.

And don't even try and tell me that whatever I feel for you is because you look like her. Do you want to know the reason I observed you so much? Took shots at you? Pushed you? Because I needed to make sure. I needed to know that you weren't Katherine and I was displacing my feelings for her onto you. Like Stefan.

And before you gripe and go to defend him... remember how you found out about her, Elena. He still has her picture.

Yes you can. And it wasn't me. I've been here for awhile now.

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notkatherine
2010-10-27 06:12 pm UTC (link)

I honestly don't know how to respond to that. Everything's so mixed up, and... yes, I'd deny it because I care for you and because there was something there but...

I told you before. I am not Katherine. ~~But why do I look like her?~~

I'm not defending anyone right now, Damon. I just want to understand and to stop feeling scared and empty inside.

I... don't know if I can trust you just yet, but tell me where to meet. Maybe you can explain more about everything here including this other version of Stefan. ~~And if not, I am gone from your life.~~

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	renaissancevamp 2010-10-27 06:21 pm UTC (link)
	I know you aren't Katherine, that's my point. We can meet at a local restaurant [HERE]. I can try to explain, but I don't know everything. This place is strange. Where are you, by the way? If you are somewhere far, you'll need to use something called a port key. If you need one, let me know so I can tell you where the closest is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notkatherine 2010-10-27 06:27 pm UTC (link)
	I'm in Florida. My wallet says I'm a waitress, ironically. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	renaissancevamp 2010-10-27 06:29 pm UTC (link)
	I'm in Georgia. [HERE] are a list of port keys in Florida. Find the closest to you and it'll bring you to the one closest to where we are meeting. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notkatherine 2010-10-27 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	Right, of course you would be in Georgia... I'll be there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	renaissancevamp 2010-10-27 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	I'll be here. (Reply to this) (Parent)