Nah, it's not really that much. I... got a free pass, one time - full physical reset, as it were, and no access to any drugs. I screwed it up about a year later, but... one time screwup, and I dealt with it. Fucking sucked. And I still...
It's hard, is all. After that once, I still... I didn't have any access to anything, though I probably could've gotten some if I'd really wanted. Makes me nervous, being out in the world sometimes, y'know? I'm still mostly not field-tested on the "resisting temptation" front.