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Cassidy Turner (1stbornextreme) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2010-05-13 19:06:00

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cassidy turner, soren skwigelf

I miss being mean.

No, wait, I don't miss that, precisely. I DO, however, miss being sincere.

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	twiceloved 2010-05-14 01:10 am UTC (link)
	If you'd like to vent at me, you can. Or I can distract you with interpretive dance! (Reply to this) (Thread)

Soren

1stbornextreme
2010-05-14 01:16 am UTC (link)

You know precisely why I want to unleash. She tries so fucking desperately to get attention in any way she can. she tries and that's her fucking problem! Fucking christ, if I could only TELL her that she's being a needy, slutty, ruinous mess of a woman who obviously has no idea what the hell she's doing, I'd feel better. But I can't, because if I even so much as say boo to her, she thinks I hate her, or that I've got it in for her, or... whatever it is she fucking thinks.

She's better than this, you and I both fucking know it.

And to post that? Who the fuck does she think she's going to attract into that post? Venting is one thing, you can vent all day into a pillow, or to a friend, but you don't vent to the internet unless it's a vie for attention and sympathy.

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	Cass twiceloved 2010-05-14 01:20 am UTC (link)
	You know I don't disagree with any of that, baby. But at the same time, I still feel partly responsible. I wish she realized she deserved better, but clearly, she doesn't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Soren

1stbornextreme
2010-05-14 01:30 am UTC (link)

It's not your fault. She's the one who keeps throwing herself into relationship after fruitless relationship. That is not your fault. You can guilt yourself into believing that you're the reason she's doing what she does, but you're giving yourself an ulcer for no real reason. You and I both know she slept around before you, never really committing to anyone because she had no chance to, and that set her up for now jumping from one relationship to the next.

Even if it weren't for the issues that arose with your relationship with her, I can fairly much guarantee that it would have ended. I sincerely believe the reason you stayed together as long as you did with her was out of her jealousy. Seriously. And I told you I buried all this and I HAVE. I don't care to talk about it anymore.

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	Cass twiceloved 2010-05-14 01:33 am UTC (link)
	I'm sorry, baby, I didn't mean for you to have to think about all of this. And I know it's irrational for me to still feel guilty, but I can't help but think about how much better this all would've gone if I'd just admitted I love you way sooner. Ugh. I don't want to think about any of this anymore. Can I come snuggle? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Soren 1stbornextreme 2010-05-14 01:35 am UTC (link)
	I'm still fucking irate, Soren. I think I'm going to go for a walk, now that I fucking can without a cane. I'll be back later. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cass twiceloved 2010-05-14 01:37 am UTC (link)
	I'll be here. (Reply to this) (Parent)