I know it doesn't make this any better, but I'm not a violent drunk. I'm functional. But you're right. I am a coward. I was just shy of 11 months sober, and I blew it.
All I can say is I'm sorry. I made a mistake. A stupid, hurtful mistake. I had my reasons, and I'm not proud of it. And now I'm going to try and make things right. With Sam, with Sophie, with myself.