InsaneJournal

I apologise for addressing You in such a presumptuous manner, but I daresay if anyone can set my fears at ease, it would be You.

In the other world, I encountered demons and malevolent things, as I'm sure You well know. I was never very afraid; not to sound very black, but I always rather figured I'd be allowed the length of time of my Deal, and then Lilith would come for me. However, there are demons here, and I'm afraid now. Mostly for my children. Dean, of course, can handle himself. But I've found a family here, if You will pardon my outpouring of sentiment. The Deal, as far as I'm aware, is gone. I have my life, husband, children, even friends.

The root of my query is simple, and I pray You pardon my long-windedness. Dean says that You have ... marked us, or him, somehow. That You will not allow any of us to come to harm. I don't doubt what he says ... but I had to just double check wonder ask. It seems so ... convenient. To take he and I, who haven't believed in You, who've likely committed all manner of unpardonable sins ... and absolve us? There are no strings attached? It's very hard for me to grasp.

I don't presume to know how Your plan works, nor to question it, really. But well. I don't know how to worship You or ever show the depth of my gratitude if You really have marked us. It's not in my nature to show gratitude with extravagant displays, but when it is due, it's really there. To the bottom of my heart. I hope, if You have vowed to protect us, that You'll forgive me my doubts. Grace is perhaps the last thing I ever looked for.

- Bela Talbot Winchester