Lorelai
Maybe Henry can make me a better person, but what can I do for him?
It's more than a hunch. I'm pretty damn sure I'm breaking him because I'm not getting better. He keeps trying and I just... I'm not working hard enough or something. And he feels like a failure because I'm not better. And I feel like a failure because... 'cause I'm still not over Hakkai. And I probably never will be. I think sometimes what the hell I would do if he came back. And I'm not over any of the shit I thought I was over. Sometimes it's hard for me to understand that someone's who's not as fucked up as me, who's not Hakkai, would want to stay with me. I want to get better. I want to not think things like that, but they always slip in. And it's not like I can just pretend I'm okay, cause he's fucking empathic.